thenext
half
hour
.
Miss
Grahame
promises
to
be
a
very
fair
musician
,
so
you
will
be
charmed
.
"
They
adjourned
to
the
music-room
,
where
Percy
had
already
gallantly
conducted
Annie
,
and
several
of
the
guests
,
young
and
old
,
seconded
the
move
:
Annie
Grahame
really
played
remarkably
well
,
so
far
as
execution
and
brilliancy
were
concerned
,
and
Mrs.
Hamilton
was
delighted
at
the
expression
of
Grahame
's
face
as
he
listened
to
his
child
and
the
applause
she
excited
.
"
Why
will
he
not
try
to
win
his
home-affections
,
"
she
thought
,
"
when
he
is
so
formed
to
enjoy
them
?
and
why
,
why
has
Helen
so
indolently
,
so
foolishly
cast
away
her
happiness
?
"
was
the
thought
that
followed
at
the
contrast
which
Lady
Helen
's
face
presented
to
her
husband
's
;
she
knew
Annie
played
well
,
she
had
heard
it
from
very
superior
judges
,
and
how
could
it
concern
her
what
the
present
company
thought
?
A
very
pretty
vocal
duet
from
the
two
sisters
followed
,
and
soon
afterward
Caroline
approached
the
music-stand
,
near
which
Percy
and
Mr.
Morton
were
talking
,
and
Percy
,
with
his
usual
love
of
provoking
,
exclaimed
—
"
You
surely
are
not
going
to
play
after
Miss
Grahame
,
Caroline
.
If
your
powers
deserted
you
a
few
hours
ago
,
and
prevented
the
execution
of
a
waltz
,
they
would
certainly
do
you
a
charity
in
deserting
you
completely
now
.
"
Caroline
's
cheek
burned
,
but
she
answered
,
with
spirit
—
"
Mamma
desired
me
to
oblige
my
friends
,
Percy
;
and
she
would
not
do
so
,
if
she
thought
I
should
disgrace
myself
or
her
.
"
"
Do
not
heed
your
brother
,
Miss
Hamilton
,
"
interposed
Mr.
Morton
,
taking
the
music
from
her
,
and
offering
her
his
arm
to
lead
her
to
the
piano
.
"
I
have
had
the
pleasure
of
hearing
you
often
,
and
those
who
can
not
find
an
equal
,
if
not
superior
charm
in
your
playing
to
Miss
Grahame
's
do
not
deserve
to
listen
.
"
"
Nay
,
you
must
be
flattering
,
Mr.
Morton
;
think
of
Annie
's
advantages
.
"
"
Indeed
,
my
dear
Miss
Hamilton
,
yours
exceed
hers
;
no
master
's
heart
is
in
his
pupil
's
progress
,
as
a
mother
's
in
her
child
's
,
even
should
she
not
teach
,
but
merely
superintend
.
"
Caroline
was
seated
at
the
instrument
as
he
spoke
,
and
there
was
something
in
his
few
words
touching
a
right
chord
;
for
as
she
began
to
play
she
certainly
thought
more
of
her
mother
than
any
one
else
;
and
determined
,
if
possible
,
that
others
should
think
with
Mr.
Morton
,
forgetting
at
the
moment
that
very
few
,
except
their
own
immediate
circle
,
knew
whose
pupil
she
was
,
not
imagining
that
the
mistress
of
Oakwood
and
its
large
possessions
could
have
time
or
inclination
for
any
part
of
the
education
of
her
daughters
.
Morton
was
certainly
right
as
to
the
amount
of
admiration
,
equaling
,
if
not
surpassing
,
that
bestowed
on
Miss
Grahame
;
there
was
a
soul
,
a
depth
of
expression
and
feeling
,
in
Caroline
's
far
simpler
piece
,
that
won
its
way
to
the
heart
at
once
,
and
if
it
did
not
surprise
as
much
,
it
pleased
more
,
and
excited
an
earnest
wish
to
listen
to
her
again
.
"
Does
not
your
younger
daughter
play
?
"
inquired
a
lady
,
who
had
been
much
attracted
with
Emmeline
.
"
Very
little
,
compared
with
her
sister
,
"
replied
Mrs.
Hamilton
;
"
she
is
not
nearly
so
fond
of
it
,
and
therefore
does
not
devote
so
much
time
to
its
acquirement
just
yet
.
"
"
Do
you
think
it
right
to
permit
children
to
follow
their
own
inclinations
with
regard
to
their
education
?
"
asked
another
rather
stern-looking
lady
,
with
much
surprise
.
"
Only
with
regard
to
their
accomplishments
;
my
Emmeline
is
as
fond
of
drawing
as
Caroline
is
of
music
,
and
therefore
I
indulge
her
by
permitting
her
to
give
more
time
to
the
one
,
than
to
the
other
.
"
"
But
do
you
think
natural
taste
can
be
traced
so
early
?
that
it
can
be
distinguished
from
idleness
or
perverseness
?
"
"
Indeed
,
I
do
,
"
replied
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
earnestly
.
"
If
a
child
be
allowed
leisure
to
choose
its
own
pursuits
,
and
not
always
confined
to
the
routine
of
a
school-room
,
natural
taste
for
some
employment
in
preference
to
another
will
,
I
think
,
always
display
itself
.
Not
that
I
would
depend
entirely
on
that
,
because
I
think
it
right
and
useful
to
cultivate
a
taste
for
all
the
fine
arts
,
only
giving
more
time
to
that
which
is
the
favorite
.
My
niece
has
shown
no
decided
taste
for
any
particular
pursuit
yet
;
but
I
do
not
neglect
the
cultivation
of
accomplishments
on
that
account
;
if
,
in
a
few
years
,
a
preference
manifests
itself
,
it
will
be
quite
time
enough
to
work
hard
at
that
particular
branch
.
"
"
Is
that
pretty
little
harp
used
by
either
of
your
daughters
?
"
inquired
the
first
speaker
.
"
It
looks
very
much
as
if
it
were
the
especial
property
of
my
engaging
little
friend
.
"
"
Your
guess
is
correct
,
"
replied
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
smiling
"
Emmeline
was
quite
sure
she
should
hate
music
,
if
she
must
learn
the
great
ugly
piano
.
If
she
might
only
have
a
harp
,
she
would
do
all
she
could
to
learn
,
and
she
really
has
.
"
"
And
may
we
not
hear
her
?
"
"
When
the
room
is
not
quite
so
full
:
she
has
not
half
her
sister
's
confidence
,
and
so
large
an
audience
would
frighten
away
all
her
little
powers
;
but
I
will
promise
you
a
very
sweet
song
instead
,
"
she
added
,
as
Herbert
approached
,
and
eagerly
whispered
some
request
.
"
That
is
,
if
my
persuasions
can
prevail
on
my
young
friend
;
Mrs.
Greville
,
must
I
ask
your
influence
,
or
will
mine
be
enough
?
"
"
What
,
with
Mary
?
I
rather
think
,
your
request
in
this
case
will
be
of
more
weight
than
mine
;
"
and
a
few
minutes
afterward
Mrs.
Hamilton
led
the
blushing
,
timid
girl
in
triumph
to
the
piano
.
Her
voice
,
which
was
peculiarly
sweet
and
thrilling
,
though
not
strong
,
trembled
audibly
as
she
commenced
;
but
Herbert
was
turning
over
the
leaves
of
her
music
,
his
mother
was
standing
close
beside
her
,
and
after
the
first
few
bars
her
enthusiastic
spirit
forgot
the
presence
of
all
,
save
those
she
loved
,
and
the
spirit
of
her
song
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
never
listened
to
and
looked
at
her
at
such
moments
without
a
trembling
foreboding
she
vainly
struggled
to
overcome
.
There
was
something
in
those
deep
blue
,
earnest
eyes
,
the
hectic
color
that
with
the
least
exertion
rose
to
her
cheek
,
the
transparency
of
complexion
,
the
warm
and
elevated
spirit
,
the
almost
angel
temper
and
endurance
in
her
peculiarly
tried
lot
,
that
scarcely
seemed
of
earth
;
and
never
was
that
sad
foreboding
stronger
than
at
that
moment
,
as
she
looked
round
the
crowd
of
young
and
happy
faces
,
and
none
seemed
to
express
the
same
as
Mary
's
.
She
could
scarcely
command
her
voice
and
smile
sufficiently
to
warmly
thank
her
young
favorite
as
she
ceased
;
but
Mary
was
more
than
satisfied
by
the
fond
pressure
of
her
hand
.
This
little
interruption
to
the
actual
business
of
the
evening
only
increased
the
zest
and
enjoyment
,
when
dancing
recommenced
.
Even
the
call
to
supper
was
obeyed
with
reluctance
,
and
speedily
accomplished
,
that
they
might
return
the
sooner
to
the
ball-room
.
The
hours
had
worn
away
,
it
seemed
,
on
gossamer-wings
,
and
as
each
happy
child
felt
assured
that
the
delight
could
not
last
much
longer
,
the
longing
to
dance
to
the
very
last
moment
seemed
to
increase
.
Emmeline
's
excitable
spirit
had
thrown
off
all
alloy
,
for
it
was
quite
impossible
any
one
would
think
of
asking
her
to
play
now
;
she
had
arranged
all
the
remaining
couples
—
for
the
room
had
begun
very
much
to
thin
—
for
the
favorite
haymaker
's
country
dance
,
[
2
]
and
accepting
Edward
as
her
own
partner
,
and
being
unanimously
desired
to
take
the
top
,
led
off
her
young
friends
with
such
spirit
and
grace
,
and
so
little
semblance
of
fatigue
,
that
it
certainly
appeared
as
if
she
would
verify
her
own
words
,
and
dance
all
night
.
Miss
Grahame
had
declared
it
was
much
too
great
a
romp
,
and
declined
joining
it
.
Caroline
,
who
would
have
enjoyed
it
,
more
out
of
politeness
to
her
friend
than
inclination
,
sat
down
with
her
,
and
a
cheerful
group
of
some
of
the
older
lads
,
and
one
or
two
young
ladies
,
joined
them
.
Herbert
and
Mary
finding
the
quadrille
for
which
they
were
engaged
,
changed
to
a
dance
for
which
,
though
they
had
quite
the
spirit
,
they
had
not
the
physical
strength
,
enjoyed
a
quiet
chat
instead
,
and
Ellen
seated
herself
by
her
favorite
Mary
,
declining
,
from
fatigue
,
Alfred
Greville
's
entreaty
that
she
would
second
Emmeline
.
"
I
declare
I
could
dance
myself
with
that
merry
group
,
"
exclaimed
Mr.
Grahame
,
after
watching
them
some
time
,
and
all
his
austerity
banished
by
the
kindly
spirit
of
the
evening
.
"
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
Mrs.
Greville
,
do
one
of
you
take
pity
on
me
,
and
indulge
my
fancy
.
"
Both
ladies
laughingly
begged
to
be
excused
,
offering
,
however
,
to
introduce
him
to
a
partner
.
"
No
;
it
must
be
one
of
you
or
none
at
all
.
That
little
sylph
of
yours
,
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
seems
inclined
to
dance
for
you
and
herself
too
.
What
a
pretty
couple
she
and
that
handsome
cousin
of
hers
make
!
And
there
goes
my
little
Lilla
—
I
do
hope
I
may
have
one
really
happy
child
.
What
,
tired
,
Percy
—
compelled
to
give
up
—
absolutely
exhausted
?
"
"
Indeed
I
am
,
"
answered
Percy
,
who
had
waltzed
his
partner
very
cleverly
out
of
the
line
,
and
,
after
giving
her
a
seat
,
threw
himself
on
a
large
ottoman
.
"
Mother
,
if
you
do
not
put
a
stop
to
Emmeline
's
proceedings
,
her
strength
will
entirely
fail
,
and
down
she
and
Edward
will
go
,
and
the
rest
follow
,
just
like
a
pack
of
cards
.
Do
,
pray
,
prevent
such
a
catastrophe
,
for
I
assure
you
it
is
not
in
the
least
unlikely
.
"
The
gravity
with
which
he
spoke
caused
a
general
laugh
;
but
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
feeling
by
the
length
of
time
the
fatiguing
dance
had
lasted
,
there
was
really
some
truth
in
his
words
,
desired
the
musicians
to
stop
;
causing
an
exclamation
of
regret
and
disappointment
from
many
youthful
lips
,
and
Emmeline
and
Edward
ran
up
to
her
,
to
entreat
that
they
might
go
on
little
longer
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
however
,
refused
;
and
Edward
yielded
directly
,
but
Emmeline
was
so
much
excited
,
that
obedience
was
most
unusually
difficult
;
and
when
her
mother
desired
her
to
sit
down
quietly
for
ten
minutes
,
and
then
come
to
the
music-room
,
as
Mrs.
Allan
most
particularly
wished
to
hear
her
play
before
she
left
,
she
answered
,
with
more
petulance
than
she
was
at
all
aware
of
—
"
I
am
sure
I
can
not
play
a
note
now
—
it
will
be
no
use
trying
.
"
"
Emmeline
!
"
exclaimed
her
mother
,
adding
,
gravely
,
"
I
am
afraid
you
have
danced
too
much
,
instead
of
not
enough
.
"
The
tone
,
still
more
than
the
words
,
was
enough
;
poor
Emmeline
was
just
in
that
mood
when
tears
are
quite
as
near
as
smiles
;
her
own
petulance
seemed
to
reproach
her
too
,
and
she
suddenly
burst
into
tears
.
Many
exclamations
of
sympathy
and
condolence
burst
from
her
mother
's
friends
:
—
"
Poor
child
!
"
"
She
has
over-tired
herself
!
"
"
We
cannot
expect
her
to
play
now
!
"
—
but
Mrs.
Greville
saying
,
with
a
smile
,
that
her
little
friend
's
tears
were
always
the
very
lightest
April
showers
,
successfully
turned
the
attention
of
many
from
her
;
while
Mrs.
Hamilton
taking
her
hand
from
her
face
,
merely
said
,
in
a
low
voice
—
"
Do
not
make
me
more
ashamed
of
you
,
Emmeline
.
What
would
papa
think
if
he
were
to
see
you
now
?
"
Her
little
girl
's
only
answer
was
to
bury
her
face
still
more
closely
in
her
mother
's
dress
,
very
much
as
if
she
would
like
to
hide
herself
entirely
;
but
on
Mrs.
Allan
saying
,
very
kindly
—
"
Do
not
distress
yourself
,
my
dear
.
I
would
not
have
asked
to
hear
you
play
,
if
I
had
thought
you
would
dislike
it
so
much
.
I
dare
say
you
are
very
tired
,
and
so
think
you
will
not
succeed
.
"
She
raised
her
head
directly
,
shook
back
the
fair
ringlets
that
had
fallen
over
her
face
,
and
though
the
tears
were
still
on
her
cheeks
and
filling
her
eyes
,
she
said
,
with
a
blending
of
childish
shyness
and
yet
courageous
truth
,
impossible
to
be
described
—
"
No
,
ma'am
,
I
am
not
too
tired
to
play
—
I
did
not
cry
from
fatigue
,
but
because
I
was
angry
with
mamma
for
not
letting
me
dance
any
more
,
and
angry
with
myself
for
answering
her
so
pettishly
;
and
because
—
because
—
I
thought
she
was
displeased
,
and
that
I
deserved
it
.
"
"
Then
come
and
redeem
your
character
,
"
was
Mrs.
Hamilton
's
only
notice
of
a
reply
that
actually
made
her
heart
throb
with
thankfulness
,
that
her
lessons
of
truth
were
so
fully
understood
and
practiced
by
one
naturally
so
gentle
and
timid
as
her
Emmeline
:
while
Mrs.
Allan
knew
not
what
to
answer
,
from
a
feeling
of
involuntary
respect
.
It
would
have
been
so
easy
to
escape
a
disagreeable
task
by
tacitly
allowing
that
she
was
too
tired
to
play
;
and
what
careful
training
must
it
have
been
to
have
so
taught
truth
.
"
Mrs.
Allan
would
not
ask
you
before
,
because
she
knew
you
did
not
like
to
play
while
the
room
was
so
very
full
;
therefore
,
ought
you
not
to
do
your
very
best
to
oblige
her
?
"
Emmeline
looked
timidly
up
in
her
mother
's
face
to
be
quite
sure
that
her
displeasure
had
subsided
,
as
her
words
seemed
to
denote
;
and
quite
satisfied
,
her
tears
were
all
checked
,
and
taking
Mrs.
Allan
's
offered
hand
,
she
went
directly
to
the
music-room
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
lingered
to
desire
Herbert
(
who
had
come
up
to
know
the
cause
of
his
sister
's
sudden
tears
)
to
form
the
last
quadrille
,
and
reserve
a
place
,
if
he
possibly
could
,
for
Emmeline
,
as
they
would
not
begin
till
she
had
done
.
Her
little
girl
was
playing
as
she
rejoined
her
,
and
it
really
was
a
pretty
picture
,
her
fairy
figure
with
her
tiny
harp
,
and
her
sweet
face
seeming
to
express
the
real
feeling
with
which
she
played
.
There
was
no
execution
in
the
simple
Highland
air
,
but
her
vivid
imagination
lent
it
a
meaning
,
and
so
,
when
fairly
playing
,
she
did
not
mind
it
.
Mrs.
Allan
had
lost
a
little
girl
just
at
Emmeline
's
age
,
who
had
also
played
the
harp
,
and
there
was
something
in
her
caress
and
thanks
,
after
she
had
done
,
that
made
Emmeline
stand
quietly
at
her
side
,
without
heeding
the
praises
that
were
lavished
round
her
.
Herbert
at
that
moment
appeared
with
one
of
the
young
Allans
.
"
Come
,
Emmy
,
we
are
only
waiting
for
you
;
Mr.
Allan
says
you
have
not
favored
him
to-night
,
and
he
hopes
you
will
now
.
"
"
Pray
,
do
,
"
added
Mrs.
Allan
,
as
her
son
gayly
pleaded
his
own
cause
;
Emmeline
only
waited
to
read
her
mother
's
consent
in
her
eyes
,
for
she
thought
that
she
ought
not
to
dance
any
more
;
and
in
another
minute
the
joyous
music
had
resounded
,
and
she
was
dancing
and
chatting
as
gayly
and
happily
as
if
there
had
been
no
interruption
to
her
joy
.
"
And
you
will
leave
all
these
delights
to
imprison
yourself
in
a
man-of-war
?
"
asked
Mr.
Grahame
,
jestingly
of
Edward
while
waiting
for
his
wife
and
daughters
,
who
were
the
last
departures
(
much
to
Annie
's
horror
,
for
it
was
so
unfashionable
to
be
quite
the
last
)
,
to
be
cloaked
and
shawled
.
"
Imprison
!
"
was
his
very
indignant
reply
,
"
and
on
the
wide
,
free
,
glorious
ocean
!
flying
on
the
wings
of
the
wind
wherever
we
please
,
and
compelling
the
flag
of
every
land
to
acknowledge
ours
!
No
,
Mr.
Grahame
;
you
landsmen
do
n't
know
what
liberty
is
,
if
you
talk
of
imprisonment
in
a
ship
!
We
take
our
home
wherever
we
go
,
which
you
landsmen
can
not
do
,
though
you
do
so
poetize
on
the
maternal
properties
of
Old
Mother
Earth
.
"
"
Only
hear
him
,
Hamilton
,
"
exclaimed
Grahame
,
laughing
heartily
;
"
any
one
would
think
he
had
been
a
sailor
all
his
little
life
.
You
talk
boldly
now
,
my
boy
,
but
you
may
change
your
tone
when
you
have
once
tried
the
cockpit
.
"
"
I
do
not
think
I
shall
,
"
answered
Edward
,
earnestly
;
"
I
know
there
are
many
hardships
,
and
I
dare
say
I
shall
find
them
more
disagreeable
than
I
can
possibly
imagine
;
but
I
shall
get
used
to
them
;
it
is
so
cowardly
to
care
for
hardships
.
"
"
And
is
it
no
grief
to
give
up
all
the
pleasures
of
land
?
"
"
I
exchange
them
for
others
more
delightful
still
.
"
"
And
the
sea
is
to
be
your
sister
,
uncle
,
aunt
,
and
cousins
—
altogether
?
"
"
Yes
all
,
"
replied
Edward
,
laughing
;
adding
,
as
he
put
his
arm
affectionately
round
Ellen
,
"
my
sister
has
so
many
kind
friends
that
she
will
be
able
to
spare
me
till
I
am
old
enough
to
do
all
a
brother
ought
.
"
"
You
are
a
good
fellow
,
Edward
,
and
I
see
I
must
not
talk
of
parting
,
if
I
would
preserve
this
evening
's
pleasure
unalloyed
,
"
Grahame
said
,
as
he
laid
his
hand
kindly
on
Ellen
's
head
,
and
then
turned
to
obey
the
summons
of
his
wife
.
The
young
party
,
no
doubt
,
felt
that
it
would
be
infinitely
more
agreeable
to
sit
up
all
night
,
and
talk
of
the
only
too
quickly
concluded
enjoyment
,
than
to
retire
to
their
respective
pillows
;
but
the
habits
of
Oakwood
were
somewhat
too
well
regulated
for
such
dissipation
,
though
,
no
doubt
,
their
dream-land
that
night
,
was
peopled
with
the
pleasant
shadows
of
reality
,
and
,
according
to
their
respective
sources
of
enjoyment
,
brought
back
their
evening
's
happiness
again
and
again
.
CHAPTER
XII
.
EFFECTS
OF
PLEASURE
.
—
THE
YOUNG
MIDSHIPMAN
.
—
ILL-TEMPER
,
ITS
ORIGIN
AND
CONSEQUENCES
.
The
return
to
the
quiet
routine
of
work
,
and
less
exciting
recreation
after
the
Christmas
pleasures
,
was
of
course
a
trial
to
all
our
young
friends
.
Not
so
much
to
the
boys
,
as
to
their
sisters
;
Percy
's
elastic
spirits
found
pleasure
in
every
thing
,
being
somewhat
too
old
to
care
for
his
studies
,
or
feel
them
now
as
a
restraint
.
Herbert
only
exchanged
one
kind
of
happiness
for
another
.
Edward
looked
to
every
month
that
passed
,
as
bringing
nearer
the
attainment
of
his
wishes
;
and
he
was
so
fond
of
Mr.
Howard
,
and
so
quick
at
learning
,
and
such
a
favorite
with
all
his
schoolfellows
,
that
he
did
not
care
at
all
when
the
time
of
work
came
again
.
Ellen
and
Emmeline
both
found
it
very
difficult
to
like
their
lessons
again
;
especially
the
latter
,
who
felt
as
if
work
and
regularity
were
most
particularly
disagreeable
things
,
and
sometimes
was
almost
in
despair
as
to
her
ever
enjoying
them
again
;
but
she
tried
very
hard
to
overcome
indolence
,
and
never
give
way
to
petulance
,
and
succeeded
,
so
as
to
win
her
the
delight
of
both
her
parents
'
approbation
.
Indulgence
always
made
her
feel
as
if
no
effort
on
her
part
was
too
great
to
prove
how
much
she
felt
it
;
and
when
any
one
,
old
or
young
,
experiences
this
sort
of
feeling
,
they
need
never
be
afraid
but
that
they
will
succeed
in
their
efforts
,
painful
and
hard
as
they
may
at
first
seem
.
It
was
not
so
difficult
for
Ellen
as
for
Emmeline
,
because
she
was
less
able
to
realize
such
an
intensity
of
pleasure
.
She
seemed
safer
when
regularly
employed
;
and
besides
,
to
work
hard
at
her
respective
studies
,
was
one
of
the
very
few
things
which
she
could
do
to
prove
how
much
she
loved
her
aunt
;
and
accustomed
from
such
early
childhood
to
conquer
inclination
,
and
,
in
fact
,
never
to
fancy
pleasure
and
indulgence
were
her
due
,
there
was
happiness
enough
for
her
even
in
their
more
regular
life
:
but
to
Caroline
the
change
was
actually
unbearable
.
While
admiration
and
praise
only
incited
Emmeline
to
greater
exertions
,
they
caused
Caroline
completely
to
relax
in
hers
,
and
to
give
,
in
consequence
,
as
much
trouble
and
annoyance
as
she
had
received
pleasure
.
The
perseverance
in
her
various
studies
,
especially
in
music
,
the
unceasing
control
over
her
temper
,
which
before
the
holidays
she
had
so
striven
for
,
had
now
entirely
given
way
.
It
was
much
less
trouble
for
her
to
learn
than
Emmeline
,
therefore
her
studies
with
Miss
Harcourt
were
generally
well
performed
;
but
the
admiration
she
had
excited
made
her
long
for
more
,
and
believe
herself
a
person
deserving
much
more
consideration
and
respect
than
she
received
from
her
own
family
.
These
thoughts
persisted
in
,
of
course
,
produced
and
retained
ill-temper
;
which
,
as
there
was
no
longer
any
fear
of
her
being
debarred
by
its
indulgence
from
any
pleasure
,
she
made
no
attempt
to
overcome
.
The
praise
bestowed
on
her
music
,
made
her
fancy
herself
a
much
greater
proficient
than
she
really
was
,
and
though
her
love
of
music
was
great
,
her
love
of
praise
was
greater
;
and
so
she
not
only
relaxed
in
her
practice
,
but
inwardly
murmured
at
the
very
little
praise
she
received
from
her
mother
.
"
How
can
you
give
mamma
so
much
trouble
,
Caroline
,
when
you
know
you
can
do
so
much
better
?
"
Herbert
exclaimed
,
one
day
,
when
an
attack
of
weakness
,
to
which
he
was
liable
,
had
confined
him
to
a
sofa
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
after
giving
her
usual
hour
's
lesson
,
in
which
Caroline
had
chosen
to
do
nothing
,
had
left
her
in
very
evident
displeasure
,
and
even
Herbert
was
roused
to
most
unusual
indignation
.
"
What
is
the
use
of
practicing
day
after
day
?
"
was
her
angry
reply
;
"
I
am
sure
I
should
play
just
as
well
if
I
practiced
less
.
"
"
You
did
not
think
so
a
month
ago
,
Caroline
.
"
"
No
,
because
then
I
had
something
to
practice
for
.
"
"
And
have
you
nothing
now
?
—
Is
mamma
's
approbation
nothing
?
—
Is
the
pleasure
you
give
all
of
us
,
by
your
talent
for
music
,
nothing
?
—
Oh
,
Caroline
,
why
will
you
throw
away
so
much
real
gratification
,
for
the
vain
desire
of
universal
admiration
?
"
"
There
surely
can
be
no
harm
,
Herbert
,
in
wishing
to
be
universally
loved
and
admired
.
"
"
There
is
,
when
it
makes
you
discontented
and
unhappy
,
and
blind
to
the
love
and
admiration
of
your
home
.
What
is
the
praise
of
strangers
worth
,
compared
to
that
of
those
who
love
you
best
?
"
"
There
is
not
much
chance
of
my
receiving
either
at
present
,
"
was
the
cold
reply
.
"
Because
you
will
not
try
for
the
one
most
easily
and
happily
obtained
;
and
even
without
thinking
of
praise
,
how
can
you
be
so
ungrateful
,
as
to
repay
all
mamma
's
care
and
trouble
by
the
indolence
,
coldness
,
and
almost
insolence
,
you
have
shown
to-day
?
How
few
mothers
of
her
rank
would
—
"
"
You
may
spare
your
sermon
,
Herbert
;
for
at
this
moment
I
am
not
disposed
either
to
listen
to
or
profit
by
it
,
"
interrupted
Caroline
,
and
she
left
the
room
in
anger
.
A
faint
flush
rose
to
the
pale
cheek
of
her
brother
,
but
he
quickly
conquered
the
natural
irritation
,
and
sought
his
mother
,
by
every
fond
attention
on
his
part
,
to
remove
the
pain
of
Caroline
's
conduct
.
This
continued
for
about
a
fortnight
,
at
the
end
of
which
time
,
Caroline
suddenly
resumed
her
music
with
assiduity
,
and
there
were
no
more
ebullitions
of
ill-temper
.
Herbert
hoped
his
expostulations
were
taking
effect
;
Mrs.
Hamilton
trusted
that
her
child
was
becoming
sensible
of
her
past
folly
,
and
trying
to
conquer
it
,
and
banish
its
memory
herself
:
both
,
however
,
were
mistaken
.
Annie
Grahame
had
imparted
to
her
friend
,
in
strict
confidence
,
that
her
mother
intended
giving
a
grand
ball
about
the
end
of
February
,
and
meant
to
entreat
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
as
a
personal
favor
,
to
let
Caroline
be
present
.
Caroline
little
knew
the
very
slight
foundation
Annie
had
for
this
assertion
.
Lady
Helen
had
merely
said
,
perhaps
she
would
ask
;
and
this
was
only
said
,
because
she
was
too
indolent
and
weak
to
say
"
No
"
at
once
.
Not
that
she
had
any
unkind
feeling
toward
Caroline
,
but
simply
because
she
was
perfectly
certain
Mrs.
Hamilton
would
not
consent
,
and
to
persuade
as
earnestly
as
Annie
wished
was
really
too
much
trouble
.
Caroline
's
wishes
in
this
instance
triumphed
over
her
better
judgment
,
for
had
she
allowed
herself
to
think
soberly
,
she
ought
to
have
known
her
mother
's
principles
of
action
sufficiently
,
not
to
entertain
the
slightest
hope
of
going
.
The
invitations
(
three
weeks
'
notice
)
for
her
parents
and
brothers
came
.
In
them
she
did
not
expect
to
be
included
,
but
when
above
a
week
passed
,
and
still
not
a
word
was
said
,
disappointment
took
the
place
of
hope
,
and
it
was
only
the
still
lingering
belief
that
she
might
go
,
even
at
the
last
moment
,
that
prevented
the
return
of
ill-temper
.
Now
Lady
Helen
really
had
asked
,
though
she
did
not
persuade
;
and
Mrs.
Hamilton
thanked
her
,
but
,
as
she
expected
,
decidedly
refused
.
"
Caroline
was
much
too
young
,
"
she
said
,
"
for
such
a
party
.
Did
she
know
any
thing
about
being
asked
?
"
Lady
Helen
said
,
with
truth
,
that
she
had
not
mentioned
the
subject
to
her
,
and
had
desired
Annie
to
be
equally
silent
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
quite
forgot
that
Miss
Grahame
was
not
famous
for
obedience
,
and
,
relying
on
her
friend
's
assurance
,
determined
on
not
saying
any
thing
to
Caroline
about
it
;
wishing
to
spare
her
the
pain
which
she
knew
her
refusal
would
inflict
.
As
it
happened
,
it
would
have
been
better
if
she
had
spoken
.
The
weather
had
prevented
Caroline
from
seeing
Annie
,
but
she
was
quite
sure
she
would
not
deceive
her
;
and
her
proud
heart
rebelled
against
her
mother
,
not
only
for
refusing
Lady
Helen
's
request
,
but
for
treating
her
so
much
like
a
child
,
as
to
hide
that
refusal
from
her
.
Under
the
influence
of
such
thoughts
,
of
course
,
her
temper
became
more
and
more
difficult
to
control
and
as
a
natural
consequence
,
anger
and
irritation
against
her
mother
,
and
self-reproach
for
the
indulgence
of
such
feelings
increased
,
till
she
became
actually
miserable
.
It
happened
that
about
this
time
Miss
Harcourt
left
Oakwood
for
a
week
on
a
visit
to
an
invalid
friend
at
Dartmouth
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
had
given
her
full
liberty
,
promising
that
her
pupils
should
lose
nothing
by
her
absence
.
She
left
on
the
Saturday
,
and
the
Thursday
was
Lady
Helen
's
ball
.
On
the
Monday
,
Mr.
Hamilton
,
detained
Edward
as
he
was
leaving
the
library
,
after
morning
prayers
,
and
told
him
that
he
had
received
a
letter
,
which
he
thought
might
chance
to
interest
him
.
Ten
minutes
afterward
,
Edward
rushed
into
the
breakfast-room
,
in
a
state
of
such
joyous
excitement
that
he
could
scarcely
speak
.
"
Wish
me
five
,
ten
,
twenty
thousand
joys
!
"
he
exclaimed
,
springing
from
chair
to
chair
,
as
if
velocity
of
movement
should
bring
back
speech
.
"
In
one
month
the
Prince
William
sails
,
and
I
am
to
meet
her
at
Portsmouth
,
and
be
a
sailor
,
a
real
sailor
;
and
to-morrow
fortnight
uncle
says
we
are
to
start
for
London
,
and
have
ten
days
there
to
see
all
the
fine
sights
,
and
then
go
to
Portsmouth
,
and
see
all
that
is
to
be
seen
there
,
and
then
—
and
then
—
"
"
Take
care
you
do
not
lose
your
wits
before
you
leave
Oakwood
,
"
interposed
Percy
laughing
heartily
.
"
I
should
not
at
all
wonder
,
before
you
go
,
that
you
will
be
fancying
the
river
Dart
the
Atlantic
,
and
set
sail
in
a
basket
,
touch
at
all
the
islets
you
may
pass
,
imagining
them
various
cities
,
and
finally
land
at
Dartmouth
,
believing
it
Halifax
,
your
destined
port
—
that
will
be
the
end
of
your
sailorship
,
Edward
,
depend
upon
it
.
"
"
I
rather
think
I
should
stand
a
chance
of
being
ducked
into
my
sober
senses
again
,
Percy
,
unless
wicker
be
waterproof
,
which
I
never
heard
it
was
.
"
"
But
I
have
,
though
,
"
eagerly
interrupted
Emmeline
;
"
the
Scots
and
Picts
invaded
England
in
wicker
boats
,
and
to
have
held
so
many
men
,
they
must
have
been
strong
and
waterproof
too
.
So
you
see
,
Percy
's
basket
is
only
an
ancient
boat
,
Edward
.
You
are
much
better
off
than
you
thought
you
were
.
"
"
Give
me
Alfred
's
wooden
walls
instead
,
Emmy
;
your
Picts
and
Scots
were
very
little
better
than
savages
—
Alfred
is
my
man
;
he
deserves
to
be
called
great
,
if
it
were
only
for
forming
the
first
English
navy
.
But
neither
my
aunt
nor
Ellen
have
wished
me
joy
.
I
think
I
shall
be
offended
.
"
Mrs.
Hamilton
could
not
speak
at
the
first
moment
,
for
the
joy
,
the
animation
of
her
nephew
so
recalled
the
day
when
her
own
much-loved
brother
,
her
darling
Charles
,
had
rushed
into
her
room
,
to
tell
her
all
his
glee
,
for
no
one
ever
listened
to
and
shared
in
his
joys
and
troubles
as
she
did
.
He
was
then
scarcely
older
than
Edward
,
as
full
of
hope
and
joy
and
buoyancy
—
where
was
he
?
Would
his
fate
be
that
of
the
bright
,
beautiful
boy
before
her
?
And
as
Edward
threw
his
arms
round
her
neck
,
and
kissed
her
again
and
again
,
telling
her
he
could
not
be
quite
sure
it
was
not
all
a
dream
,
unless
she
wished
him
joy
too
it
was
the
utmost
effort
to
prevent
the
fast
gathering
tears
,
and
so
command
her
voice
,
that
he
should
not
hear
her
tremble
.
Poor
Ellen
looked
and
felt
bewildered
.
She
had
always
tried
to
realize
that
Edward
,
to
be
a
sailor
,
must
leave
her
;
and
in
fact
aware
that
his
summons
would
soon
come
,
her
aunt
and
uncle
had
often
alluded
to
his
departure
before
her
,
but
still
she
had
never
thought
it
near
;
and
now
the
news
was
so
sudden
,
and
Edward
was
so
wild
with
joy
she
fancied
she
ought
to
rejoice
too
,
but
she
could
not
;
and
Percy
was
obliged
to
ask
her
merrily
,
what
ailed
her
,
and
if
she
could
not
trust
to
his
being
a
much
more
worthy
brother
than
such
a
water-rat
,
who
had
no
business
whatever
on
land
,
before
she
could
take
her
place
at
the
breakfast
table
and
try
to
smile
.
But
her
eyes
would
rest
on
Edward
even
then
,
and
she
felt
as
if
there
were
something
across
her
throat
and
she
could
not
swallow
the
nice
roll
which
Herbert
,
had
so
kindly
buttered
and
cut
,
and
so
quietly
placed
in
her
plate
;
and
when
Edward
said
something
very
funny
,
as
he
was
in
the
habit
of
doing
,
and
made
them
all
laugh
,
she
tried
to
laugh
too
,
but
instead
of
a
laugh
it
was
a
sob
that
startled
herself
,
for
she
was
quite
sure
she
did
not
mean
to
be
so
foolish
:
but
instead
of
being
reproved
,
as
she
was
afraid
she
should
be
,
she
felt
her
aunt
's
arm
thrown
gently
round
her
,
till
she
could
hide
her
face
on
her
shoulder
,
and
cry
quite
quietly
for
a
few
minutes
,
for
they
went
on
talking
and
laughing
round
the
breakfast-table
,
and
nobody
took
any
notice
of
her
,
which
she
was
quite
glad
of
,
for
she
could
not
bear
Edward
to
think
she
was
unhappy
when
he
was
so
pleased
.
And
after
breakfast
,
though
he
was
in
such
a
desperate
hurry
to
tell
Mr.
Howard
the
good
news
,
that
when
he
did
set
off
,
he
left
even
Percy
far
behind
him
,
he
found
time
to
give
her
a
hearty
kiss
,
and
to
tell
her
that
he
loved
her
very
much
,
though
he
could
not
help
being
so
glad
he
was
going
to
sea
;
and
that
he
was
quite
proud
of
her
,
because
though
he
knew
she
was
very
sorry
he
was
going
,
she
did
not
cry
and
make
a
fuss
as
some
selfish
people
would
;
and
then
she
really
did
smile
.
"
It
is
Monday
morning
,
my
dears
,
and
I
find
Ellis
and
Morris
require
my
attention
for
a
longer
time
than
I
expected
,
"
Mrs.
Hamilton
said
,
as
she
entered
the
school-room
,
and
found
the
three
girls
preparing
their
books
,
"
so
I
must
set
you
all
to
work
,
and
see
how
well
you
can
get
on
without
me
till
eleven
,
when
I
will
rejoin
you
.
I
shall
order
the
carriage
at
half-past
twelve
,
and
if
all
I
require
is
completed
,
we
will
pay
your
favorite
old
ruin
a
visit
,
Emmy
;
the
morning
is
so
lovely
,
that
I
think
we
may
venture
to
take
our
sketch-books
,
and
see
what
other
part
of
Berry
Pomeroy
we
can
take
pencil
possession
of
.
"
Such
an
anticipation
was
quite
enough
for
Emmeline
.
Her
dance
about
the
room
was
only
checked
by
the
idea
that
her
lessons
would
never
be
ready
,
nor
her
exercises
and
sums
done
,
unless
she
sat
quietly
down
,
and
so
,
with
a
great
effort
,
she
gave
all
her
attention
to
her
various
tasks
,
and
mastered
them
even
before
her
mother
returned
.
Ellen
,
though
she
tried
quite
as
much
,
was
not
so
successful
.
The
Prince
William
would
sail
in
miniature
on
her
slate
,
over
all
her
figures
.
The
recollection
of
the
awful
storm
they
had
encountered
on
their
voyage
to
England
would
return
so
vividly
,
that
the
very
room
seemed
to
heave
.
And
then
—
but
she
could
not
make
out
why
she
should
think
about
that
then
—
her
mother
's
death-bed
came
before
her
and
her
promise
,
and
it
seemed
harder
still
to
part
with
Edward
,
from
a
vague
dread
that
came
over
her
,
but
still
she
tried
to
attend
to
what
she
had
to
do
,
and
congratulated
herself
on
its
completion
before
her
aunt
appeared
.
Caroline
,
alone
,
was
determined
not
to
work
.
Because
she
had
not
made
herself
miserable
enough
already
,
the
most
unfounded
jealousy
entered
her
head
from
seeing
her
mother
's
caressing
kindness
toward
Ellen
at
breakfast
;
why
was
not
her
manner
as
kind
to
her
!
She
was
quite
as
unhappy
,
and
her
mother
must
see
it
,
but
she
took
no
notice
of
her
—
only
of
Ellen
.
She
might
be
cross
sometimes
,
but
she
never
told
stories
or
tried
to
hide
her
faults
,
and
it
was
very
hard
and
unjust
that
she
should
be
treated
so
like
a
child
,
and
Ellen
made
so
much
of
;
and
so
she
thought
and
thought
,
not
attempting
to
do
a
single
thing
till
she
actually
made
herself
believe
,
for
the
time
,
that
her
kind
,
indulgent
mother
had
no
love
for
her
;
and
every
thing
looked
blacker
than
before
.
She
made
no
effort
to
rouse
herself
even
in
Mrs.
Hamilton
's
presence
,
but
listened
to
her
remonstrances
with
such
extreme
carelessness
,
almost
insolence
,
that
her
mother
felt
her
patience
failing
.
The
self-control
,
however
,
for
which
she
had
successfully
striven
,
enabled
her
so
to
overcome
the
irritation
,
as
to
retain
her
own
quiet
dignity
,
and
simply
to
desire
Caroline
to
give
her
attention
at
once
to
her
studies
,
and
conquer
her
ill-temper
,
or
not
to
think
of
accompanying
them
on
their
excursion
,
as
idleness
and
peevishness
were
better
left
to
themselves
.
An
insolent
and
haughty
reply
rose
to
Caroline
's
lips
;
but
with
an
effort
she
remained
silent
,
her
flushed
forehead
alone
denoting
the
internal
agitation
.
Emmeline
's
diligence
and
the
approbation
she
received
irritated
her
still
more
;
but
she
rejoiced
when
she
heard
her
mother
tell
Ellen
there
was
not
a
correct
line
in
her
French
exercise
,
and
her
sum
,
a
compound
long
division
,
wrong
from
the
very
first
figure
.
But
the
pleasure
soon
gave
place
to
indignant
anger
,
when
,
instead
of
the
reproof
which
she
believed
would
follow
,
Mrs.
Hamilton
said
very
kindly
—
"
I
should
very
much
like
these
done
correctly
,
Ellen
,
before
we
go
out
;
suppose
you
ensconce
yourself
in
that
bay
window
,
there
are
a
table
and
chair
all
ready
for
you
,
and
we
shall
not
interrupt
you
as
we
should
if
you
remain
at
this
table
.
I
know
they
are
both
very
difficult
,
to-day
especially
,
but
the
more
merit
in
their
accomplishment
,
you
know
the
more
pleased
I
shall
be
.
"
Ellen
obeyed
directly
;
a
little
care
,
and
with
the
assistance
of
her
grammar
,
which
her
aunt
permitted
her
to
refer
to
,
instead
of
depending
entirely
on
her
memory
that
morning
,
enabled
her
to
succeed
with
her
French
;
but
four
times
was
that
tormenting
sum
returned
to
,
till
at
last
her
tears
effaced
the
figures
as
fast
as
they
were
written
.
Still
,
patience
and
resolution
in
both
teacher
and
pupil
conquered
,
and
the
fifth
time
there
was
not
a
figure
wrong
;
and
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
fondly
putting
back
the
heavy
ringlets
which
in
Ellen
's
absorbed
attention
had
fallen
over
her
tearful
cheeks
,
said
,
playfully
—
"
Shall
I
tell
you
a
secret
,
my
little
Ellen
?
I
was
quite
as
disinclined
to
be
firm
this
morning
as
you
were
to
be
patient
;
so
you
see
we
have
both
gained
a
grand
victory
.
My
conjuring
propensities
,
as
Emmy
thinks
them
,
told
me
that
you
had
real
cause
for
some
little
inattention
,
and
,
therefore
that
it
was
very
cruel
in
me
to
be
so
determined
;
but
my
judgment
would
tell
me
that
my
feeling
was
wrong
,
and
that
to
conquer
disinclination
and
overcome
a
difficulty
,
was
a
much
better
way
of
lessening
even
natural
sorrow
than
to
give
up
.
I
do
not
expect
you
to
think
so
just
now
,
but
I
fancy
you
are
not
very
sorry
this
disagreeable
,
terribly
tiresome
sum
has
not
to
be
done
to-morrow
,
which
it
must
have
been
,
had
you
left
it
to-day
.
"
Ellen
was
so
glad
,
that
she
felt
almost
happy
,
and
her
few
other
duties
were
done
quite
briskly
,
for
Mrs.
Hamilton
had
been
so
kind
as
to
countermand
the
carriage
till
one
,
that
she
and
Caroline
might
have
time
to
finish
.
But
Caroline
,
if
she
had
not
tried
before
,
was
now
still
less
capable
of
doing
so
.
Every
word
of
kindness
addressed
to
Ellen
increased
the
storm
raging
within
,
and
the
difficulty
of
restraining
it
in
Mrs.
Hamilton
's
presence
caused
it
to
burst
forth
with
unmitigated
violence
the
moment
she
quitted
the
apartment
,
desiring
Emmeline
and
Ellen
to
make
haste
,
and
put
away
their
books
,
but
still
without
taking
the
least
notice
of
her
.
Invective
,
reproach
,
almost
abuse
,
were
poured
against
Ellen
,
who
stood
actually
frightened
at
the
violence
she
had
so
very
innocently
excited
,
and
at
the
fearful
and
deforming
passion
which
inflamed
her
cousin
's
every
feature
.
Caroline
's
anger
had
miscounted
time
,
or
she
must
have
known
that
her
mother
could
not
have
gone
far
enough
,
for
such
unusual
tones
of
excitement
to
escape
her
quick
hearing
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
startled
and
alarmed
,
returned
directly
,
and
so
vividly
did
her
child
's
appearance
and
words
recall
her
own
misguided
sister
in
those
uncontrolled
fits
of
fury
,
under
which
she
had
so
often
trembled
,
that
present
disappointment
and
dread
for
the
future
,
took
possession
of
her
,
and
for
the
moment
rendered
her
powerless
.
Caroline
was
too
much
engrossed
to
perceive
her
at
first
,
and
she
had
,
therefore
time
to
rally
from
the
momentary
weakness
.
"
What
does
this
mean
?
"
she
exclaimed
,
fixing
her
eyes
on
Caroline
,
with
that
expression
of
quiet
but
stern
reproof
,
which
when
she
did
use
it
—
and
it
was
very
seldom
—
had
the
power
of
subduing
even
the
wildest
excitement
.
"
What
has
Ellen
done
,
that
you
should
abuse
her
with
this
unjust
and
cruel
and
most
unfeminine
violence
?
You
have
indulged
your
ill-temper
till
you
do
not
know
what
you
say
or
do
,
and
you
are
venting
on
another
the
anger
which
my
displeasure
has
caused
you
to
feel
toward
me
and
toward
yourself
.
I
desire
that
you
will
control
it
directly
,
or
retire
to
your
own
room
,
till
you
can
behave
with
some
degree
of
propriety
,
and
not
disturb
the
comfort
and
happiness
of
others
in
this
most
uncalled-for
manner
.
"
"
I
will
not
go
,
"
answered
Caroline
,
bursting
into
violent
tears
,
and
scarcely
aware
of
what
she
was
saying
,
"
I
know
I
dislike
Ellen
,
and
I
have
reason
to
dislike
her
,
for
before
she
came
,
you
were
never
so
often
displeased
with
me
;
you
are
always
kind
and
indulgent
to
her
,
always
treat
her
as
a
reasonable
being
,
not
as
the
child
,
the
infant
you
think
me
.
I
know
you
have
lost
all
love
for
me
,
or
you
must
have
seen
I
was
unhappy
,
and
spoken
kindly
to
me
,
as
you
did
to
Ellen
;
I
have
every
reason
to
dislike
her
,
stealing
your
affection
from
me
as
she
has
,
and
I
do
with
all
my
heart
!
"
"
Go
,
and
prepare
for
our
drive
,
my
dear
children
,
"
Mrs.
Hamilton
said
,
as
she
calmly
turned
for
a
moment
to
Emmeline
and
Ellen
,
who
both
stood
bewildered
,
the
former
from
actual
terror
that
her
sister
should
dare
so
to
address
her
mother
,
and
the
latter
from
pain
at
the
violent
avowal
of
a
dislike
which
she
had
intuitively
felt
,
but
had
always
tried
to
disbelieve
.
"
The
beauty
of
the
day
will
be
gone
if
we
linger
much
longer
,
and
I
do
not
intend
to
be
disappointed
of
our
promised
ramble
.
Do
not
think
any
thing
of
what
this
unhappy
girl
is
saying
;
at
present
she
scarcely
knows
herself
,
and
will
by-and-by
wish
it
recalled
,
far
more
intensely
than
ever
we
can
.
"
Emmeline
longed
to
throw
her
arms
round
her
mother
,
and
with
tears
beseech
her
to
forget
what
Caroline
had
said
;
but
,
though
Mrs.
Hamilton
had
spoken
cheerfully
,
and
in
quite
her
usual
tone
of
voice
to
them
,
there
was
something
in
her
countenance
,
that
checked
any
display
of
softness
even
in
her
affectionate
child
;
something
that
almost
awed
her
,
and
she
left
the
room
with
Ellen
to
prepare
for
the
promised
excursion
,
which
had
,
however
,
lost
all
its
anticipated
enjoyment
from
the
uncontrolled
temper
of
another
.
"
Now
,
Caroline
,
I
will
answer
you
,
"
said
Mrs.
Hamilton
,
as
soon
as
they
were
alone
,
and
again
regarding
Caroline
,
who
was
sobbing
violently
,
with
that
same
searching
look
.
"
Your
charges
are
such
very
heavy
ones
,
that
I
really
must
request
you
during
my
absence
to
arrange
and
define
them
in
some
order
.
I
am
so
perfectly
ignorant
of
having
given
you
any
foundation
for
them
,
that
,
before
I
can
attempt
defense
,
you
must
inform
me
exactly
and
definitely
of
what
you
complain
.
That
this
morning
my
manner
was
kinder
to
Ellen
than
to
you
I
quite
acknowledge
.
Her
inattention
and
depression
had
a
cause
,
yours
had
none
;
for
if
you
were
unhappy
,
it
was
from
your
own
fearful
temper
,
which
by
encouragement
has
blackened
every
thing
around
you
.
You
may
employ
your
time
till
dinner
as
you
choose
;
but
at
five
o'clock
come
to
me
in
my
dressing-room
,
prepared
to
define
and
inform
me
of
every
charge
you
can
bring
against
me
.
You
will
consider
this
a
command
,
Caroline
,
disregard
or
evasion
of
which
will
be
disobedience
.
"
She
left
the
room
,
and
in
a
very
short
time
afterward
Caroline
heard
the
carriage
drive
off
;
but
for
nearly
three
long
hours
she
never
moved
from
her
seat
,
so
utterly
miserable
,
as
scarcely
even
to
change
her
position
.
Never
in
her
life
before
,
not
in
her
most
angry
moments
,
had
she
so
spoken
to
her
mother
,
and
her
remorse
was
almost
intolerable
.
Again
and
again
she
remembered
what
Mrs.
Hamilton
had
told
her
so
often
,
that
,
if
she
did
not
strive
and
pray
against
the
dominion
of
ill-temper
while
young
,
it
would
become
more
and
more
uncontrollable
,
and
the
older
she
became
,
the
more
difficult
to
subdue
,
even
in
a
moderate
degree
;
and
her
words
were
indeed
true
.
It
had
been
many
months
since
temper
had
gained
such
an
ascendency
,
and
its
effects
were
far
,
far
more
violent
,
and
its
power
over
her
more
determined
,
and
if
,
as
she
grew
older
,
it
should
be
still
worse
,
what
would
become
of
her
?
how
insufferably
wretched
?
what
would
she
not
have
given
to
have
recalled
her
words
?
The
jealousy
which
had
arisen
,
now
she
knew
not
how
,
had
sunk
into
air
before
those
few
calm
inquiring
sentences
from
her
mother
,
and
in
her
excessive
misery
every
kind
deed
and
word
and
look
,
every
fond
indulgence
and
forbearance
,
in
fact
,
all
the
love
her
mother
had
so
lavished
on
her
from
her
infancy
,
rushed
back
upon
her
,
till
she
actually
hated
herself
,
and
longed
the
more
intensely
for
the
comfort
of
that
soothing
affection
,
which
,
in
real
pain
or
childish
sorrow
,
had
never
been
refused
her
.
"
Why
,
why
did
Annie
tell
me
any
thing
about
that
hateful
ball
?
"
she
exclaimed
,
at
length
,
as
the
sound
of
many
joyous
voices
and
the
dressing-bell
proclaimed
the
return
of
the
various
members
of
her
family
only
in
time
to
prepare
for
dinner
.
"
It
was
all
,
all
from
that
;
I
know
now
,
only
from
that
one
thought
—
one
wish
.
Why
was
I
such
a
fool
,
as
not
to
tell
mamma
at
once
that
I
knew
I
was
to
be
asked
,
and
wished
so
much
to
go
?
—
if
she
had
refused
me
,
it
would
not
have
been
half
the
pain
I
have
made
for
myself
.
And
how
can
I
meet
papa
's
eye
and
Percy
's
unkind
jokes
with
eyes
like
these
?
"
she
added
,
as
on
rising
to
go
to
her
own
room
,
she
caught
sight
of
her
own
face
in
a
mirror
,
and
actually
started
at
the
disfigurement
which
the
violence
of
her
emotion
had
wrought
.
"
Oh
,
how
I
wish
mamma
had
not
desired
me
to
go
to
her
;
that
I
could
but
hide
myself
from
every
body
—
or
get
rid
of
this
horrible
black
cloud
.
"
From
every
eye
but
her
mother
's
she
could
and
did
hide
herself
;
for
saying
that
her
head
ached
,
which
was
the
truth
,
and
she
did
not
wish
any
thing
to
take
,
she
refused
to
go
down
to
dinner
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
had
successfully
exerted
herself
during
their
excursion
,
and
Emmeline
and
Ellen
enjoyed
themselves
so
thoroughly
as
almost
to
forget
the
alloy
of
the
morning
;
and
even
when
Caroline
's
message
recalled
it
,
the
boys
were
all
so
merry
,
that
it
did
not
disturb
them
.
Percy
always
declared
that
Caroline
's
headache
was
only
another
term
for
temper-ache
,
and
he
would
certainly
have
sent
her
some
message
of
mock
pity
,
if
his
quick
eye
had
not
discovered
or
fancied
that
his
mother
did
not
look
quite
as
well
as
usual
,
and
so
he
contented
himself
by
trying
still
more
to
be
the
life
of
the
dinner-table
.
Mr.
Hamilton
had
seen
at
a
single
glance
that
all
was
not
quite
right
,
and
Caroline
's
non-appearance
and
message
explained
it
,
to
his
extreme
regret
,
for
he
had
begun
to
hope
and
believe
that
his
wife
's
extreme
solicitude
,
on
her
account
,
was
beginning
to
decrease
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
had
not
much
doubt
that
silence
and
solitude
had
so
far
had
effect
on
Caroline
as
to
subdue
passion
,
and
bring
her
to
a
sense
of
her
misconduct
;
but
that
had
scarcely
power
to
lessen
the
anxiety
and
the
pain
which
Caroline
's
words
had
so
wantonly
inflicted
.
Had
she
indeed
evinced
any
thing
like
undue
partiality
?
the
idea
alone
almost
brought
a
smile
;
fondly
,
and
almost
as
her
own
child
,
as
she
loved
her
little
niece
.
The
very
anxiety
Caroline
occasioned
her
,
deepened
her
affection
;
the
very
control
she
was
obliged
to
exercise
in
her
mode
of
guiding
her
,
strengthened
every
feeling
toward
her
.
She
was
so
enwrapped
in
these
painfully
engrossing
thoughts
,
in
the
strict
examination
of
her
own
own
heart
,
that
she
was
not
aware
the
time
she
had
appointed
had
passed
by
full
ten
minutes
,
till
she
was
roused
by
the
handle
of
her
door
being
softly
turned
,
and
left
again
,
as
if
some
one
had
wished
to
enter
,
but
hesitated
.
The
very
hesitation
gave
her
hope
,
for
she
really
did
not
know
that
the
utmost
penalty
she
could
have
inflicted
on
Caroline
,
in
the
moment
of
natural
indignation
,
would
have
failed
in
producing
such
an
effect
as
the
simple
command
to
seek
her
,
and
define
her
charges
against
her
,
when
that
angry
excitement
had
so
calmed
,
that
Caroline
would
have
given
worlds
,
if
she
might
but
have
not
referred
to
it
again
.
She
knew
she
dared
not
disobey
,
but
her
daring
had
left
her
so
powerless
that
she
had
stood
at
her
mother
's
door
full
ten
minutes
before
she
could
command
courage
sufficient
to
open
it
and
enter
.
Mrs.
Hamilton
looked
at
her
changed
aspect
,
the
bitter
humiliation
expressed
in
every
feature
,
with
such
pity
,
that
it
required
even
more
than
her
usual
exercise
of
control
,
to
retain
the
grave
,
and
apparently
unmoved
tone
with
which
she
said
—
"
You
have
had
a
long
time
in
which
to
reflect
on
your
charges
against
me
,
Caroline
.
I
hope
they
are
now
sufficiently
defined
for
me
to
understand
and
answer
them
.
You
may
sit
down
,
for
you
do
not
seem
very
capable
of
standing
.
"
Caroline
gladly
obeyed
,
by
sitting
down
on
a
low
ottoman
,
some
little
distance
from
her
mother
,
on
whose
neck
she
absolutely
longed
to
throw
herself
and
beseech
forgiveness
;
but
Mrs.
Hamilton
's
tone
was
not
such
as
to
give
her
courage
to
do
so
.
She
remained
silent
,
burying
her
face
in
her
hands
.
"
I
am
waiting
your
pleasure
,
Caroline
;
I
should
have
thought
that
you
had
had
plenty
of
time
to
think
during
my
absence
.
Of
what
do
you
accuse
me
?
"
"
Oh
,
nothing
,
nothing
!
mamma
,
dear
mamma
,
do
not
speak
to
me
in
that
tone
,
I
can
not
bear
it
;
indeed
,
indeed
,
I
am
miserable
enough
already
;
condemn
me
to
any
punishment
,
the
severest
you
can
,
I
know
I
deserve
it
—
but
do
not
,
do
not
speak
so
.
"
"
No
,
Caroline
;
were
I
to
condemn
you
to
any
punishment
,
it
would
seem
more
like
vengeance
for
the
pain
you
have
inflicted
on
me
by
your
accusation
of
partiality
and
injustice
,
than
from
the
hope
of
producing
any
good
end
.
You
are
no
longer
a
child
,
who
must
be
taught
the
line
of
duty
to
a
parent
.
You
know
it
now
as
well
as
I
can
teach
it
,
and
if
you
fail
,
must
be
answerable
only
to
yourself
.
I
can
not
help
you
any
further
,
than
by
requesting
you
to
explain
clearly
the
origin
of
your
complaint
against
me
.
Its
main
ground
of
offense
is
,
I
believe
,
that
since
Ellen
has
become
an
inmate
of
my
family
I
have
treated
you
with
more
harshness
and
unkindness
than
I
ever
did
before
.
Can
you
look
back
on
the
last
eighteen
months
and
recall
one
instance
in
which
this
has
been
the
case
?
I
must
have
an
answer
,
Caroline
;
you
may
now
think
explanation
is
not
necessary
,
and
that
you
meant
nothing
when
you
spoke
,
but
that
will
not
satisfy
me
nor
you
,
when
ill-temper
regains
ascendency
.
You
need
not
refrain
from
answering
for
fear
of
wounding
me
.
You
can
scarcely
do
that
more
than
you
have
done
already
.
"
Caroline
tried
to
speak
,
but
she
could
only
sob
forth
,
that
she
could
not
recall
one
instance
,
in
which
her
mother
had
been
more
displeased
with
her
than
her
conduct
merited
.
Acknowledging
,
but
almost
inarticulately
,
that
she
had
sometimes
fancied
that
she
had
remained
longer
cold
with
her
than
with
Ellen
,
after
the
committal
of
a
fault
—
and
that
—
(
she
stopped
)
.
"
Go
on
,
Caroline
.
"
"
I
could
not
feel
my
faults
such
heavy
ones
as
Ellen
's
.
"
"
They
are
of
equal
,
if
not
greater
weight
than
your
cousin
's
,
Caroline
.
You
have
been
,
from
your
earliest
infancy
,
the
object
of
the
most
tender
and
devoted
care
to
your
father
and
myself
.
Miss
Harcourt
has
followed
out
our
plans
;
you
have
never
been
exposed
to
any
temptation
,
not
even
that
of
casual
bad
example
.
Ellen
,
till
she
became
mine
,
encountered
neglect
,
harshness
,
all
that
could
not
fail
in
such
a
character
to
engender
the
faults
she
has
.
You
can
not
compare
yourself
with
her
,
for
,
had
you
been
situated
as
she
was
,
I
fear
you
