andsaid
,
'
I
am
unhappy
because
I
cannot
see
the
path
of
honour
.
'
“
Then
I
babbled
something
,
I
forget
what
:
then
he
went
on
like
this
—
ah
,
I
never
forget
what
he
says
—
he
said
Cicero
says
'
AEquitas
ipsa
lucet
per
se
;
something
significat
something
else
:
'
and
he
repeated
it
slowly
for
me
—
he
knows
I
know
a
little
Latin
;
and
told
me
that
was
as
much
as
to
say
'
Justice
is
so
clear
a
thing
,
that
whoever
hesitates
must
be
on
the
road
of
wrong
.
And
yet
,
'
he
said
bitterly
,
'
I
hesitate
and
doubt
,
in
a
matter
of
right
and
wrong
,
like
an
Academic
philosopher
weighing
and
balancing
mere
speculative
straws
.
'
Those
were
his
very
words
.
'
And
so
,
'
said
he
,
'
I
am
miserable
;
deserving
to
be
miserable
.
'
“
Then
I
ventured
to
remind
him
that
he
,
and
I
,
and
all
Christian
souls
,
had
a
resource
not
known
to
heathen
philosophers
,
however
able
.
And
I
said
,
'
Dear
Alfred
,
when
I
am
in
doubt
and
difficulty
,
I
go
and
pray
to
Him
to
guide
me
aright
:
have
you
done
so
?
'
No
,
that
had
never
occurred
to
him
:
but
he
would
,
if
I
made
a
point
of
it
;
and
at
any
rate
he
could
not
go
on
in
this
way
.
I
should
soon
see
him
again
,
and
,
once
his
mind
was
made
up
,
no
shrinking
from
mere
consequences
,
he
promised
me
.
Then
we
bade
one
another
good
night
and
he
went
off
holding
his
head
as
proudly
as
he
used
:
and
poor
silly
me
fluttered
,
and
nearly
hysterical
,
as
soon
as
I
quite
lost
sight
of
him
.
”
“
Dec.
17th
.
—
At
church
in
the
morning
:
a
good
sermon
.
Notes
and
analysis
.
In
the
evening
Jane
's
clergyman
preached
.
She
came
.
Going
out
I
asked
her
a
question
about
what
we
had
heard
;
but
she
did
not
answer
me
.
At
parting
she
told
me
she
made
it
a
rule
not
to
speak
coming
from
church
,
not
even
about
the
sermon
.
This
seemed
austere
to
poor
me
.
But
of
course
she
is
right
.
Oh
,
that
I
was
like
her
.
”
“
Dec.
18th
.
—
Edward
is
coming
out
.
This
boy
,
that
one
has
taught
all
the
French
,
all
the
dancing
,
and
nearly
all
the
Latin
he
knows
,
turns
out
to
be
one
's
superior
,
infinitely
:
I
mean
in
practical
good
sense
.
Mamma
had
taken
her
pearls
to
the
jeweller
and
borrowed
two
hundred
pounds
.
He
found
this
out
and
objected
.
She
told
him
a
part
of
it
was
required
to
keep
him
at
Oxford
.
'
Oh
indeed
,
'
said
he
:
and
we
thought
of
course
there
was
an
end
:
but
next
morning
he
was
off
before
breakfast
and
the
day
after
he
returned
from
Oxford
with
his
caution
money
,
forty
pounds
,
and
gave
it
mamma
;
she
had
forgotten
all
about
it
.
And
he
had
taken
his
name
off
the
college
books
and
left
the
university
for
ever
.
The
poor
,
gentle
tears
of
mortification
ran
down
his
mother
's
cheeks
,
and
I
hung
round
her
neck
,
and
scolded
him
like
a
vixen
—
as
I
am
.
We
might
have
spared
tears
and
fury
both
,
for
he
is
neither
to
be
melted
nor
irritated
by
poor
little
us
.
He
kissed
us
and
coaxed
us
like
a
superior
being
,
and
set
to
work
in
his
quiet
,
sober
,
ponderous
way
,
and
proved
us
a
couple
of
fools
to
our
entire
satisfaction
,
and
that
without
an
unkind
word
!
for
he
is
as
gentle
as
a
lamb
,
and
as
strong
as
ten
thousand
elephants
.
He
took
the
money
back
and
brought
the
pearls
home
again
,
and
he
has
written
'
SOYEZ
DE
VOTRE
SIECLE
'
in
great
large
letters
,
and
has
pasted
it
on
all
our
three
bed-room
doors
,
inside
.
And
he
has
been
all
these
years
quietly
cutting
up
the
Morning
Advertiser
,
and
arranging
the
slips
with
wonderful
skill
and
method
.
He
calls
it
'
digesting
the
Tiser
!
'
'
and
you
ca
n't
ask
for
any
modern
information
,
great
or
small
,
but
he
'll
find
you
something
about
it
in
this
digest
.
Such
a
folio
!
It
takes
a
man
to
open
and
shut
it
.
And
he
means
to
be
a
sort
of
little
papa
in
this
house
,
and
mamma
means
to
let
him
.
And
indeed
it
is
so
sweet
to
be
commanded
;
besides
,
it
saves
thinking
for
oneself
,
and
that
is
such
a
worry
.
”
“
Dec.
19th
.
—
Yes
,
they
have
settled
it
:
we
are
to
leave
here
,
and
live
in
lodgings
to
save
servants
.
How
we
are
to
exist
even
so
,
mamma
cannot
see
;
but
Edward
can
:
he
says
we
two
have
got
popular
talents
,
and
he
knows
the
markets
(
what
does
that
mean
,
I
wonder
)
,
and
the
world
in
general
.
I
asked
him
wherever
he
picked
it
up
,
his
knowledge
:
he
said
,
'
In
the
'
Tiser
.
'
I
asked
him
would
he
leave
the
place
where
she
lives
.
He
looked
sad
,
but
said
,
'
Yes
:
for
the
good
of
us
all
.
'
So
he
is
better
than
I
am
;
but
who
is
not
?
I
wasted
an
imploring
look
on
him
;
but
not
on
mamma
:
she
looked
back
to
me
,
and
then
said
sadly
,
'
Wait
a
few
days
,
Edward
,
for
—
my
sake
.
'
That
meant
for
poor
credulous
Julia
's
,
who
still
believes
in
him
.
My
sweet
mother
!
”
“
Dec.
21st
.
—
Told
Mamma
to-day
I
would
go
for
a
governess
,
to
help
her
,
since
we
are
all
ruined
.
She
kissed
me
and
trembled
;
but
she
did
not
say
'
No
;
'
so
it
will
come
to
that
.
He
will
be
sorry
.
When
I
do
go
,
I
think
I
shall
find
courage
to
send
him
a
line
:
just
to
say
I
am
sure
he
is
not
to
blame
for
withdrawing
.
Indeed
how
could
I
ever
marry
a
man
whose
father
I
have
heard
my
father
call
—
—
”
(
the
pen
was
drawn
through
the
rest
)
.
“
Dec.
22nd
.
—
A
miserable
day
:
low
spirited
and
hysterical
.
We
are
really
going
away
.
Edward
has
begun
to
make
packing-cases
:
I
stood
over
him
and
sighed
,
and
asked
him
questions
:
he
said
he
was
going
to
take
unfurnished
rooms
in
London
,
send
up
what
furniture
is
absolutely
necessary
,
and
sell
the
rest
by
auction
,
with
the
lease
of
our
dear
,
dear
house
,
where
we
were
all
so
happy
once
.
So
,
what
with
his
'
knowledge
of
the
markets
,
and
the
world
,
'
and
his
sense
,
and
his
strong
will
,
we
have
only
to
submit
.
And
then
he
is
so
kind
,
too
:
'
Do
n't
cry
,
little
girl
,
'
he
said
.
'
Not
but
what
I
could
turn
on
the
waters
myself
if
there
was
anything
to
be
gained
by
it
.
Shall
I
cry
,
Ju
,
'
said
he
,
'
or
shall
I
whistle
?
I
think
I
'll
whistle
.
'
And
he
whistled
a
tune
right
through
while
he
worked
with
a
heart
as
sick
as
my
own
,
perhaps
.
Poor
Edward
!
”
“
Dec.
23rd
.
—
My
Christian
friend
has
her
griefs
,
too
.
But
then
she
puts
them
to
profit
:
she
says
today
,
'
We
are
both
tasting
the
same
flesh-crucifying
but
soul-profiting
experience
.
'
Her
every
word
is
a
rebuke
to
me
:
torn
at
this
solemn
season
of
the
year
with
earthly
passions
.
Went
down
after
reading
her
letter
,
and
played
and
sang
the
Gloria
in
Excelsis
of
Pergolesi
,
with
all
my
soul
.
So
then
I
repeated
it
,
and
burst
out
crying
in
the
middle
.
Oh
shame
!
shame
!
”
“
Dec.
24th
.
—
Edward
started
for
London
at
five
in
the
morning
to
take
a
place
for
us
.
The
servants
were
next
told
,
and
received
warning
;
the
one
we
had
the
poorest
opinion
of
,
she
is
such
a
flirt
,
cried
,
and
begged
mamma
to
let
her
share
our
fallen
fortunes
,
and
said
she
could
cook
a
little
and
would
do
her
best
.
I
kissed
her
violently
,
and
quite
forgot
I
was
a
young
lady
till
she
herself
reminded
me
;
and
she
looked
frightened
at
mamma
.
But
mamma
only
smiled
through
her
tears
and
said
,
'
Think
of
it
quietly
,
Sarah
,
before
you
commit
yourself
.
'
”
“
I
am
now
sitting
in
my
old
room
,
cold
as
a
stone
:
for
I
have
packed
up
some
things
:
so
the
first
step
is
actually
taken
.
Oh
,
if
I
but
knew
that
he
was
happy
!
Then
I
could
endure
anything
.
But
how
can
I
think
so
?
Well
,
I
will
go
,
and
never
tell
a
soul
what
I
suspect
,
and
he
cannot
tell
,
even
if
he
knows
:
for
it
is
his
father
.
Jane
,
too
,
avoids
all
mention
of
her
own
father
and
brother
more
than
is
natural
.
Oh
,
if
I
could
only
be
a
child
again
!
“
Regrets
are
vain
;
I
will
cease
even
to
record
them
;
these
diaries
feed
one
's
selfishness
,
and
the
unfortunate
passion
,
that
will
make
me
a
bad
daughter
and
an
ungrateful
soldier
of
Him
who
was
born
as
to-morrow
:
to
your
knees
,
false
Christian
!
to
your
knees
!
”
“
I
am
calmer
now
;
and
feel
resigned
to
the
will
of
Heaven
;
or
benumbed
;
or
something
.
I
will
pack
this
box
and
then
go
down
and
comfort
my
mother
;
and
visit
my
poor
people
,
perhaps
for
the
last
time
:
ah
me
!
“
A
knock
at
the
street
door
!
his
knock
!
I
know
every
echo
of
his
hand
,
and
his
foot
.
Where
is
my
composure
now
?
I
flutter
like
a
bird
.
I
will
not
go
down
.
He
will
think
I
love
him
so
.
“
At
least
I
will
wait
till
he
has
nearly
gone
.
“
Elizabeth
has
come
to
say
I
am
wanted
in
the
drawing-room
.
“
So
I
must
go
down
whether
I
like
or
no.
“
Bedtime
.
Oh
that
I
had
the
pen
of
a
writer
to
record
the
scene
I
have
witnessed
,
worthily
.
When
I
came
in
,
I
found
mamma
and
him
both
seated
in
dead
silence
.
He
rose
and
looked
at
me
and
I
at
him
:
and
years
seemed
to
have
rolled
over
his
face
since
last
I
saw
it
.
I
was
obliged
to
turn
my
head
away
;
I
curtseyed
to
him
distantly
,
and
may
Heaven
forgive
me
for
that
:
and
we
sat
down
,
and
presently
turned
round
and
all
looked
at
one
another
like
the
ghosts
of
the
happy
creatures
we
once
were
altogether
.
“
Then
Alfred
began
,
not
in
his
old
imperative
voice
,
but
scarce
above
a
whisper
;
and
oh
the
words
such
as
none
but
himself
in
the
wide
world
would
have
spoken
—
I
love
him
better
than
ever
;
I
pity
him
;
I
adore
him
;
he
is
a
scholar
;
he
is
a
chevalier
;
he
is
the
soul
of
honour
;
he
is
the
most
unfortunate
and
proudest
gentleman
beneath
the
sun
;
oh
,
my
darling
!
my
darling
!
!
“
He
said
,
'
Mrs
.
Dodd
,
and
you
Miss
Dodd
,
whom
I
loved
before
I
lost
the
right
to
ask
you
to
be
mine
,
and
whom
I
shall
love
to
the
last
hour
of
my
miserable
existence
,
I
am
come
to
explain
my
own
conduct
to
you
,
and
to
do
you
an
act
of
simple
justice
,
too
long
delayed
.
To
begin
with
myself
,
you
must
know
that
my
understanding
is
of
the
Academic
School
:
I
incline
to
weigh
proofs
before
I
make
up
my
mind
.
But
then
I
differ
from
that
school
in
this
,
that
I
cannot
think
myself
to
an
eternal
standstill
;
(
such
an
expression
!
but
what
does
that
matter
,
it
was
his
;
)
I
am
a
man
of
action
:
in
Hamlet
's
place
I
should
have
either
turned
my
ghost
into
ridicule
,
or
my
uncle
into
a
ghost
;
so
I
kept
away
from
you
while
in
doubt
,
but
now
I
doubt
no
longer
.
I
take
my
line
:
ladies
,
you
have
been
swindled
out
of
a
large
sum
of
money
.
“
My
blood
ran
cold
at
these
words
.
Surely
nothing
on
earth
but
a
man
could
say
this
right
out
like
that
.
“
Mamma
and
I
looked
at
one
another
;
and
what
did
I
see
in
her
face
,
for
the
first
time
?
Why
that
she
had
her
suspicions
too
,
and
had
been
keeping
them
from
me
.
Pitying
angel
!
“
He
went
on
:
'
Captain
Dodd
brought
home
several
thousand
pounds
?
'
“
Mamma
said
'
Yes
.
'
And
I
think
she
was
going
to
say
how
much
,
but
he
stopped
her
and
made
her
write
the
amount
in
an
envelope
,
while
he
took
another
and
wrote
in
it
with
his
pencil
.
He
took
both
envelopes
to
me
,
and
asked
me
to
read
them
out
in
turn
:
I
did
,
and
mamma
's
said
fourteen
thousand
pounds
:
and
his
said
fourteen
thousand
pounds
.
Mamma
looked
such
a
look
at
me
.
“
Then
he
turned
to
me
:
'
Miss
Dodd
,
do
you
remember
that
night
you
and
I
met
at
Richard
Hardie
's
door
?
Well
,
scarce
five
minutes
before
that
,
your
father
was
standing
on
our
lawn
and
called
to
the
man
,
who
was
my
father
,
in
a
loud
voice
—
it
rings
in
my
ears
now
—
“
Hardie
,
Villain
!
give
me
back
my
money
,
my
fourteen
thousand
pounds
!
give
me
my
children
's
money
,
or
may
your
children
die
before
your
eyes
.
”
Ah
,
you
wince
to
hear
me
whisper
these
dreadful
words
:
what
if
you
had
been
where
I
was
and
heard
them
spoken
,
and
in
a
terrible
voice
;
the
voice
of
Despair
;
the
voice
of
Truth
!
Soon
a
window
opened
cautiously
,
and
a
voice
whispered
,
“
Hush
!
I
'll
bring
it
you
down
.
”
And
this
voice
was
the
voice
of
fear
,
of
dishonesty
,
and
of
Richard
Hardie
.
'
“
He
turned
deadly
white
when
he
said
this
,
and
I
cried
to
mamma
,
'
Oh
,
stop
him
!
stop
him
!
'
And
she
said
,
'
Alfred
,
think
what
you
are
saying
.
Why
do
you
tell
us
what
we
had
better
never
know
?
'
He
answered
directly
.
“
'
Because
it
is
the
truth
:
and
because
I
loathe
injustice
.
Some
time
afterwards
I
taxed
Mr.
Richard
Hardie
with
this
fourteen
thousand
pounds
:
and
his
face
betrayed
him
.
I
taxed
his
clerk
,
Skinner
:
and
Skinner
's
face
betrayed
him
:
and
he
fled
the
town
that
very
night
.
“
My
mother
looked
much
distressed
and
said
,
'
To
what
end
do
you
raise
this
pitiable
subject
?
Your
father
is
a
bankrupt
,
and
we
but
suffer
with
the
rest
.
'
“
'
No
,
no
,
'
said
he
,
'
I
have
looked
through
the
bankrupt
's
books
,
and
there
is
no
mention
of
the
sum
.
And
then
who
brought
Captain
Dodd
here
?
Skinner
?
and
Skinner
is
his
detected
confederate
.
It
is
clear
to
me
poor
Captain
Dodd
trusted
that
sum
to
us
before
he
had
the
fit
;
beyond
this
all
is
conjecture
.
'
“
Mamma
looked
at
me
again
,
and
said
,
'
What
am
I
to
do
;
or
say
?
'
'
I
screamed
,
'
Do
nothing
,
say
nothing
:
oh
pray
,
pray
make
him
hold
his
tongue
,
and
let
the
vile
money
go
.
It
is
not
his
fault
.
'
“
'
Do
?
'
said
the
obstinate
creature
:
'
why
tell
Edward
,
and
let
him
employ
a
sharp
attorney
:
you
have
a
supple
antagonist
and
a
daring
one
.
Need
I
say
I
have
tried
persuasion
,
and
even
bribes
:
but
he
defies
me
.
Set
an
attorney
on
him
,
or
the
police
.
Fiat
Justitia
,
ruat
coelum
.
'
I
put
both
hands
out
to
him
and
burst
out
'
Oh
,
Alfred
,
why
did
you
tell
?
A
son
expose
his
own
father
?
For
shame
;
for
shame
!
I
have
suspected
it
all
long
ago
:
but
I
would
never
have
told
.
'
“
He
started
a
little
;
but
said
,
'
Miss
Dodd
,
you
were
very
generous
to
me
:
but
that
is
not
exactly
a
reason
why
I
should
be
a
cur
to
you
;
and
an
accomplice
in
a
theft
by
which
you
suffer
.
I
have
no
pretensions
to
religion
like
my
sister
:
so
I
ca
n't
afford
to
tamper
with
plain
right
and
wrong
.
What
,
look
calmly
on
and
see
one
man
defraud
another
?
I
ca
n't
do
it
.
See
you
defrauded
?
you
,
Mrs.
Dodd
,
for
whom
I
profess
affection
and
friendship
?
You
,
Miss
Dodd
,
for
whom
I
profess
love
and
constancy
?
Stand
and
see
you
swindled
into
poverty
?
Of
what
do
you
think
I
am
made
?
My
stomach
rises
against
it
,
my
blood
boils
against
it
,
my
flesh
creeps
at
it
,
my
soul
loathes
it
:
'
then
after
this
great
burst
he
seemed
to
turn
so
feeble
:
'
Oh
,
'
said
he
,
faltering
,
'
I
know
what
I
have
done
;
I
have
signed
the
death
warrant
of
our
love
,
dear
to
me
as
life
.
But
I
ca
n't
help
it
.
Oh
,
Julia
,
Julia
,
my
lost
love
,
you
can
never
look
on
me
again
;
you
must
not
love
a
man
you
cannot
marry
.
Cheat
Hardie
's
wretched
son
.
But
what
could
I
do
?
Fate
offers
me
but
the
miserable
choice
of
desolation
or
cowardly
rascality
.
I
choose
desolation
and
I
mean
to
stand
by
my
choice
like
a
man
.
So
good-bye
,
ladies
.
'
“
The
poor
proud
creature
rose
from
his
seat
,
and
bowed
stiffly
and
haughtily
to
us
both
,
and
was
going
away
without
another
word
,
and
I
do
believe
for
ever
.
But
his
soul
had
been
too
great
for
his
body
;
his
poor
lips
turned
pale
and
he
staggered
;
and
would
have
fallen
,
but
mamma
screamed
to
me
,
and
she
he
loves
so
dearly
,
and
abandons
so
cruelly
,
woke
from
a
stupor
of
despair
,
and
flew
and
caught
him
fainting
in
these
arms
.
”
CHAPTER
XXVII
“
WE
laid
the
poor
proud
creature
on
the
sofa
,
and
bathed
his
face
with
eau
de
Cologne
.
He
spoke
directly
,
and
said
that
was
nice
,
and
'
His
head
!
his
head
!
'
And
I
do
n't
think
he
was
ever
quite
insensible
,
but
he
did
not
know
what
was
going
on
,
for
presently
he
opened
his
eyes
wide
,
and
stared
at
us
so
,
and
then
closed
them
with
,
oh
such
a
sigh
;
it
swelled
my
heart
almost
to
bursting
.
And
to
think
I
could
say
nothing
:
but
mamma
soothed
him
and
insisted
on
his
keeping
quiet
;
for
he
wanted
to
run
away
from
us
.
She
was
never
so
good
to
him
before
:
she
said
,
'
My
dear
child
,
you
have
my
pity
and
my
esteem
;
alas
!
that
at
your
age
you
should
be
tried
like
this
.
How
few
in
this
sorry
world
would
have
acted
like
you
:
I
should
have
sided
with
my
own
flesh
and
blood
,
for
one
.
'
“
'
What
,
right
or
wrong
?
'
he
asked
.
“
'
Yes
,
'
said
she
,
'
right
or
wrong
.
'
Then
she
turned
to
me
:
'
Julia
,
shall
all
the
generosity
be
on
his
side
?
'
“
I
kissed
her
and
clung
to
her
,
but
dared
not
speak
;
but
I
was
mad
enough
to
hope
,
I
scarcely
know
what
,
till
she
said
in
the
same
kind
,
sorrowful
voice
,
'
I
agree
with
you
;
you
can
never
be
my
son
;
nor
Julia
's
husband
.
But
as
for
that
money
,
it
revolts
me
to
proceed
to
extremes
against
one
,
who
after
all
is
your
father
,
my
poor
,
poor
,
chivalrous
boy
.
'
But
she
would
decide
nothing
without
Edward
;
he
had
taken
his
father
's
place
in
this
house
.
So
then
I
gave
all
up
,
for
Edward
is
made
of
iron
.
Alfred
was
clearer
sighted
than
I
,
and
never
had
a
hope
:
he
put
his
arm
round
mamma
and
kissed
her
,
and
she
kissed
him
:
and
he
kissed
my
hand
,
and
crept
away
,
and
I
heard
his
step
on
the
stair
,
and
on
the
road
ever
so
far
,
and
life
seemed
ended
for
me
when
I
heard
it
no
more
.
“
Edward
has
come
home
.
Mamma
told
him
all
:
he
listened
gravely
:
I
hung
upon
his
hips
;
and
at
last
the
oracle
spoke
;
and
said
'
This
is
a
nice
muddle
.
'
“
More
we
could
not
get
from
him
;
he
must
sleep
on
it
.
O
suspense
!
you
torture
!
He
had
seen
a
place
he
thinks
will
suit
us
:
it
is
a
bad
omen
his
saying
that
so
soon
after
.
As
I
went
to
bed
I
could
not
help
whispering
,
'
If
he
and
I
are
parted
,
so
will
you
and
Jane
.
'
The
cruel
boy
answered
me
out
loud
,
'
Thank
you
,
little
girl
:
that
is
a
temptation
;
and
you
have
put
me
on
my
guard
.
'
“
Oh
,
how
hard
it
is
to
understand
a
man
!
they
are
so
impracticable
with
their
justice
and
things
.
I
came
away
with
my
cheeks
burning
,
and
my
heart
like
a
stone
;
to
bed
,
but
not
to
sleep
.
My
poor
,
poor
unhappy
,
noble
Alfred
!
”
“
Dec.
27th
.
—
Mamma
and
Edward
have
discussed
it
:
they
say
nothing
to
me
.
Can
they
have
written
to
him
?
I
go
about
my
duties
like
a
ghost
;
and
pray
for
submission
to
the
Divine
will
.
”
“
Dec.
28th
—
To-day
as
I
was
reading
by
main
force
to
Mrs.
Eagleton
's
sick
girl
,
came
Sarah
all
in
a
hurry
with
,
I
was
wanted
,
Miss.
But
I
would
finish
my
chapter
,
and
O
how
hard
the
devil
tried
to
make
me
gabble
it
;
so
I
clenched
my
teeth
at
him
,
and
read
it
as
if
I
was
spelling
it
;
and
then
did
n't
I
fly
?
“
He
was
there
;
and
they
all
sat
waiting
for
me
.
I
was
hot
and
cold
all
at
the
same
time
,
and
he
rose
and
bowed
to
me
,
and
I
curtseyed
to
him
,
and
sat
down
and
took
my
work
,
and
did
n't
know
one
bit
what
I
was
doing
.
“
And
our
new
oracle
,
Edward
,
laid
down
the
law
like
anything
.
'
Look
here
,
Hardie
,
'
said
he
,
'
if
anybody
but
you
had
told
us
about
this
fourteen
thousand
pounds
,
I
should
have
set
the
police
on
your
governor
before
now
.
But
it
seems
to
me
a
shabby
thing
to
attack
a
father
on
the
son
's
information
,
especially
when
it
's
out
of
love
for
one
of
us
he
has
denounced
his
own
flesh
and
blood
.
'
”
“
'
No
,
no
,
'
said
Alfred
eagerly
,
'
out
of
love
of
justice
.
'
”
“
'
Ah
,
you
think
so
,
my
fine
fellow
,
but
you
would
not
have
done
it
for
a
stranger
,
'
said
Edward
.
Then
he
went
on
:
'
Of
all
blunders
,
the
worst
is
to
fall
between
two
stools
.
Look
here
,
mamma
:
we
decide
,
for
the
son
's
sake
,
not
to
attack
the
father
:
after
that
it
would
be
very
inconsistent
to
turn
the
cold
shoulder
to
the
son
.
Another
thing
,
who
suffers
most
by
this
fraud
?
Why
the
man
that
marries
Julia
.
'
Alfred
burst
out
impetuously
,
'
Oh
,
prove
that
to
me
,
and
let
me
be
that
sufferer
.
'
Edward
turned
calmly
to
mamma
:
'
If
the
fourteen
thousand
pounds
was
in
our
hands
,
what
should
you
do
with
it
?
'
“
The
dear
thing
said
she
should
settle
at
least
ten
thousand
of
it
on
Me
,
and
marry
Me
to
this
poor
motherless
boy
,
'
whom
I
have
learned
to
love
myself
,
'
said
she
.
“
'
There
,
'
said
Edward
,
'
you
see
it
is
you
who
lose
by
your
governor
's
—
I
wo
n't
say
what
—
if
you
marry
my
sister
.
'
“
Alfred
took
his
hand
,
and
said
,
'
God
bless
you
for
telling
me
this
.
'
“
Then
Edward
turned
to
mamma
and
me
;
and
said
,
'
This
poor
fellow
has
left
his
father
's
house
because
he
wronged
us
:
then
this
house
ought
to
open
its
arms
to
him
:
that
is
only
justice
.
But
now
to
be
just
to
our
side
;
I
have
been
to
Mr.
Crawford
,
the
lawyer
,
and
I
find
this
Hardie
junior
has
ten
thousand
pounds
of
his
own
.
That
ought
to
be
settled
on
Julia
,
to
make
up
for
what
she
loses
by
Hardie
senior
's
—
I
wo
n't
say
what
.
'
“
'
If
anybody
settles
any
of
their
trash
on
me
,
I
'll
beat
them
,
and
throw
it
in
the
fire
,
'
said
I
;
'
and
I
hated
money
.
'
“
The
oracle
asked
me
directly
did
I
hate
clothes
and
food
,
and
charity
to
the
poor
,
and
cleanliness
,
and
decency
?
Then
I
did
n't
hate
money
,
'
for
none
of
these
things
can
exist
without
money
,
you
little
romantic
humbug
;
you
shut
up
!
'
“
Mamma
rebuked
him
for
his
expressions
,
but
approved
his
sentiments
.
But
I
did
not
care
for
his
sentiments
:
for
he
smiled
on
me
,
and
said
,
'
We
two
are
of
one
mind
;
we
shall
transfer
our
fortune
to
Captain
Dodd
,
whom
my
father
has
robbed
.
Julia
will
consent
to
share
my
honest
poverty
.
'
“
'
Well
,
we
will
talk
about
that
,
'
said
Edward
pompously
.
“
'
Talk
about
it
without
me
,
then
,
'
I
cried
,
and
got
up
,
and
marched
out
indignant
:
only
it
was
partly
my
low
cunning
to
hide
my
face
that
I
could
not
keep
the
rapture
out
of
.
And
,
as
soon
as
I
had
retired
with
cold
dignity
,
off
I
skipped
into
the
garden
to
let
my
face
loose
,
and
I
think
they
sent
him
after
me
;
for
I
heard
his
quick
step
behind
me
;
so
I
ran
away
from
him
as
hard
as
I
could
;
so
of
course
he
soon
caught
me
;
in
the
shrubbery
where
he
first
asked
me
to
be
his
;
and
he
kissed
both
my
hands
again
and
again
like
wildfire
,
as
he
is
,
and
he
said
,
'
You
are
right
,
dearest
;
let
them
talk
of
their
trash
while
I
tell
you
how
I
adore
you
;
poverty
with
you
will
be
the
soul
's
wealth
;
even
misfortune
,
by
your
side
,
would
hardly
be
misfortune
:
let
all
the
world
go
,
and
let
you
and
I
be
one
,
and
live
together
;
and
die
together
;
for
now
I
see
I
could
not
have
lived
without
you
,
nor
without
your
love
.
'
And
I
whispered
something
on
his
shoulder
—
no
matter
what
;
what
signifies
the
cackle
of
a
goose
?
And
we
mingled
our
happy
tears
,
and
our
hearts
,
and
our
souls
.
Ah
,
Love
is
a
sweet
a
dreadful
passion
:
what
we
two
have
gone
through
for
one
another
in
a
few
months
!
He
dined
with
us
,
and
Edward
and
he
sat
a
long
,
long
time
talking
;
I
dare
say
it
was
only
about
their
odious
money
;
still
I
envied
Edward
having
him
so
long
.
But
at
last
he
came
up
,
and
devoured
me
with
his
lovely
grey
eyes
,
and
I
sang
him
Aileen
Aroon
,
and
he
whispered
things
in
my
ear
,
oh
,
such
sweet
sweet
,
idiotic
,
darling
things
;
I
will
not
part
with
even
the
shadow
of
one
of
them
by
putting
it
on
paper
,
only
I
am
the
blessedest
creature
in
all
the
world
;
and
I
only
hope
to
goodness
it
is
not
very
wicked
to
be
so
happy
as
I
am
.
”
“
Dec.
31st
.
—
It
is
all
settled
.
Alfred
returns
to
Oxford
to
make
up
for
lost
time
;
the
time
spent
in
construing
me
instead
of
Greek
:
and
at
the
end
of
term
he
is
to
come
of
age
and
marry
—
somebody
.
Marriage
!
what
a
word
to
put
down
!
it
makes
me
tingle
;
it
thrills
me
;
it
frightens
me
deliciously
:
no
,
not
deliciously
;
anything
but
:
for
suppose
,
being
both
of
us
fiery
,
and
they
all
say
one
of
them
ought
to
be
cold
blooded
for
a
pair
to
be
happy
,
I
should
make
him
a
downright
bad
wife
.
Why
then
I
hope
I
shall
die
in
a
year
or
two
out
of
my
darling
's
way
,
and
let
him
have
a
good
one
instead
.
I
'd
come
back
from
the
grave
and
tear
her
to
pieces
.
“
Jan.
4th
.
—
Found
a
saint
in
a
garret
over
a
stable
.
Took
her
my
luncheon
clandestinely
;
that
is
lady-like
for
'
under
my
apron
:
'
and
was
detected
and
expostulated
by
Ned
.
He
took
me
into
his
studio
—
it
is
carpeted
with
shavings
—
and
showed
me
the
'
Tiser
digest
,
an
enormous
book
he
has
made
of
newspaper
cuttings
all
in
apple-pie
order
;
and
out
of
this
authority
he
proved
vice
and
poverty
abound
most
wherever
there
are
most
charities
.
Oh
,
'
and
the
poor
'
a
set
of
intoxicated
sneaks
,
and
me
a
Demoralising
Influence
.
It
is
all
very
fine
:
but
why
are
there
saints
in
garrets
,
and
half-starved
?
That
rouses
all
my
evil
passions
,
and
I
cannot
bear
it
;
it
is
no
use
.
“
Jan.
6th
.
—
Once
a
gay
day
;
but
now
a
sad
one
.
Mamma
gone
to
see
poor
papa
,
where
he
is
.
Alfred
found
me
sorrowful
,
and
rested
my
forehead
on
his
shoulder
;
that
soothed
me
,
while
it
lasted
.
I
think
I
should
like
to
grow
there
.
Mem
!
to
burn
this
diary
;
and
never
let
a
creature
see
a
syllable
.
“
As
soon
as
he
was
gone
,
prayed
earnestly
on
my
knees
not
to
make
an
idol
of
him
.
For
it
is
our
poor
idols
that
are
destroyed
for
our
weakness
.
Which
really
I
cannot
quite
see
the
justice
of
.
”
“
Jan.
8th
.
—
Jane
does
not
approve
my
proposal
that
we
should
praise
now
and
then
at
the
same
hour
instead
of
always
praying
.
The
dear
girl
sends
me
her
unconverted
diary
'
to
show
me
she
is
“
a
brand
.
”
'
I
have
read
most
of
it
.
But
really
it
seems
to
me
she
was
always
goodish
:
only
she
went
to
parties
,
and
read
novels
,
and
enjoyed
society
.
“
There
,
I
have
finished
it
.
Oh
dear
,
how
like
her
un
converted
diary
is
to
my
con
verted
one
!
”
“
Jan.
14th
.
—
A
sorrowful
day
:
he
and
I
parted
,
after
a
fortnight
of
the
tenderest
affection
,
and
that
mutual
respect
without
which
neither
of
us
,
I
think
,
could
love
long
.
I
had
resolved
to
be
very
brave
;
but
we
were
alone
,
and
his
bright
face
looked
so
sad
;
the
change
in
it
took
me
by
surprise
,
and
my
resolution
failed
;
I
clung
to
him
.
If
gentlemen
could
interpret
,
as
we
can
,
he
would
never
have
left
me
.
It
is
better
as
it
is
.
He
kissed
my
tears
away
as
fast
as
they
came
:
it
was
the
first
time
he
had
ever
kissed
more
than
my
hand
;
so
I
shall
have
that
to
think
of
,
and
his
dear
promised
letters
:
but
it
made
me
cry
more
at
the
time
,
of
course
.
Some
day
,
when
we
have
been
married
years
and
years
,
I
shall
tell
him
not
to
go
and
pay
a
lady
for
every
tear
;
if
he
wants
her
to
leave
off
.
“
The
whole
place
so
gloomy
and
vacant
now
.
”
“
Jan.
20th
.
—
Poverty
stares
us
in
the
face
.
Edward
says
we
could
make
a
modest
living
in
London
;
and
nobody
be
the
wiser
:
but
here
we
are
known
,
and
'
must
be
ladies
and
gentlemen
,
and
fools
,
'
he
says
.
He
has
now
made
me
seriously
promise
not
to
give
money
and
things
out
of
the
house
to
the
poor
:
it
is
robbing
my
mother
and
him
.
Ah
,
now
I
see
it
is
nonsense
to
despise
money
:
here
I
come
home
sad
from
my
poor
people
;
and
I
used
to
return
warm
all
over
.
And
the
poor
old
souls
do
not
enjoy
my
sermons
half
so
much
as
when
I
gave
them
nice
things
to
eat
along
with
them
.
“
The
dear
boy
,
that
I
always
loved
dearly
,
but
admire
and
love
now
that
he
has
turned
an
intolerable
tyrant
and
he
used
to
be
Wax
,
has
put
down
two
maids
out
of
our
three
,
and
brings
our
dinner
up
himself
in
a
jacket
,
then
puts
on
his
coat
and
sits
down
with
us
,
and
we
sigh
at
him
and
he
grins
and
derides
us
;
he
does
not
care
one
straw
for
Pomp
.
And
mamma
and
I
have
to
dress
one
another
now
.
And
I
like
it
.
”
“
Jan.
30th
.
—
He
says
we
may
now
,
by
great
economy
,
subsist
honestly
till
my
wedding-day
;
but
then
mamma
and
he
must
'
absquatulate
.
'
Oh
,
what
stout
hearts
men
have
.
They
can
jest
at
sorrow
even
when
,
in
spite
of
their
great
thick
skins
,
they
feel
it
.
Ah
,
the
real
poor
are
happy
:
they
marry
,
and
need
not
leave
the
parish
where
their
mother
lives
.
”
“
Feb.
4th
.
—
A
kind
and
most
delicate
letter
from
Jane
.
She
says
,
'
Papa
and
I
are
much
grieved
at
Captain
Dodd
's
affliction
,
and
deeply
concerned
at
your
loss
by
the
Bank
.
Papa
has
asked
Uncle
Thomas
for
two
hundred
pounds
,
and
I
entreat
you
to
oblige
me
by
receiving
it
at
my
hands
and
applying
it
according
to
the
dictates
of
your
own
affectionate
heart
.
”
“
Actually
our
Viceroy
will
not
let
me
take
it
:
he
says
he
will
not
accept
a
crumb
from
the
man
who
owes
us
a
loaf
.
”
“
Feb.
8th
.
—
Jane
mortified
,
and
no
wonder
.
If
she
knew
how
very
poor
we
are
,
she
would
be
surprised
as
well
.
I
have
implored
her
not
to
take
it
to
heart
,
for
that
all
will
be
explained
one
day
,
and
she
will
see
we
could
not
.
“
His
dear
letters
!
I
feed
on
them
.
We
have
no
secrets
,
no
two
minds
.
He
is
to
be
a
first
class
and
then
a
private
tutor
.
Our
money
is
to
go
to
mamma
:
it
is
he
and
I
that
are
to
work
our
fingers
to
the
bone
(
I
am
so
happy
!
)
,
and
never
let
them
be
driven
by
injustice
from
their
home
.
But
all
this
is
a
great
secret
.
The
Viceroy
will
be
defeated
,
only
I
let
him
talk
till
Alfred
is
here
to
back
me
.
No
;
it
is
not
just
the
rightful
owner
of
fourteen
thousand
pounds
should
be
poor
.
“
How
shallow
female
education
is
:
I
was
always
led
to
suppose
modesty
is
the
highest
virtue
.
No
such
thing
!
Justice
is
the
queen
of
the
virtues
:
He
is
justice
incarnate
.
”
“
March
10th
.
—
On
reperusing
this
diary
,
it
is
demoralising
;
very
:
it
feeds
self
.
Of
all
the
detestable
compositions
:
Me
,
Me
,
Me
,
from
one
end
to
another
:
for
when
it
is
not
about
myself
,
it
is
about
Alfred
,
and
that
it
is
my
he-Me
though
not
my
she-one
.
So
now
to
turn
over
a
new
leaf
:
from
this
day
I
shall
record
only
the
things
that
happen
in
this
house
and
what
my
betters
say
to
me
,
not
what
I
say
;
and
the
texts
;
and
outline
of
the
sermons
;
and
Jane
's
Christian
admonitions
.
”
Before
a
resolve
so
virtuous
all
impure
spirits
retire
,
taking
off
their
hats
,
and
bowing
down
to
the
very
ground
,
but
apprehending
Small
Beer
.
CHAPTER
XXVIII
Extracts
from
Jane
Hardie
's
Diary
.
“
March
3rd
.
—
In
my
district
again
,
the
first
time
since
my
illness
,
from
which
I
am
indeed
but
half
recovered
.
Spoke
faithfully
to
Mrs.
B
.
about
her
infidel
husband
:
told
her
not
to
try
and
talk
to
him
,
but
to
talk
to
God
about
him
.
Gave
her
my
tract
'
A
quiet
heart
.
'
Came
home
tired
.
Prayed
to
be
used
to
sharpen
the
sickles
of
other
reapers
.
”
“
March
4th
.
—
At
St.
Philip
's
to
hear
the
Bishop
.
In
the
midst
of
an
excellent
sermon
on
Gen.
i
.
2
,
he
came
out
with
the
waters
of
baptism
,
to
my
horror
:
he
disclaimed
the
extravagant
views
some
of
them
take
,
then
hankered
after
what
he
denied
,
and
then
partly
unsaid
that
too
.
While
the
poor
man
was
trimming
his
sails
,
I
slunk
behind
a
pillar
in
the
corner
of
my
pew
,
and
fell
on
my
knees
,
and
prayed
(
a
)
against
the
stream
of
poison
flowing
on
the
congregation
.
Oh
,
I
felt
like
Jeremiah
in
his
dungeon
.
”
“
In
the
evening
papa
forbade
me
to
go
to
church
again
:
said
the
wind
was
too
cold
:
I
kissed
him
,
and
went
up
to
my
room
and
put
my
head
between
the
pillows
not
to
hear
the
bells
.
Prayed
for
poor
(
b
)
Alfred
.
”
“
March
5th
.
—
Sadly
disappointed
in
J
.
D
.
I
did
hope
he
was
embittering
the
world
to
her
by
degrees
.
But
for
some
time
past
she
writes
in
ill-concealed
spirits
.
“
Another
friend
,
after
seeking
rest
in
the
world
,
is
now
seeking
it
in
ritualism
.
May
both
be
drawn
from
their
rotten
reeds
to
the
cross
'
And
oh
this
moral
may
my
heart
retain
,
All
hopes
of
happiness
on
earth
are
vain
.
'
”
“
March
6th
.
—
The
cat
is
out
of
the
bag
.
She
is
corresponding
with
Alfred
:
indeed
she
makes
no
secret
of
it
.
Wrote
her
a
(
c
)
faithful
letter
.
Received
a
short
reply
,
saying
I
had
made
her
unhappy
,
and
begging
me
to
suspend
my
judgment
till
she
could
undeceive
me
without
giving
me
too
much
pain
.
What
mystery
is
this
?
”
“
March
7th
.
—
Alfred
announces
his
unalterable
determination
to
marry
Julia
.
I
read
the
letter
to
papa
directly
.
He
was
silent
for
a
long
time
:
and
then
said
:
'
All
the
worse
for
both
of
them
.
'
It
was
all
I
could
do
to
suppress
a
thrill
of
carnal
complacency
at
the
thought
this
might
in
time
pave
the
way
to
another
union
.
Even
to
think
of
that
now
is
a
sin
.
1
Cor
.
vii
.
20-4
,
plainly
shows
that
whatever
position
(
d
)
of
life
we
are
placed
in
,
there
it
is
our
duty
to
abide
.
A
child
,
for
instance
,
is
placed
in
subjection
to
her
parents
;
and
must
not
leave
them
without
their
consent
.
”
“
March
8th
.
—
Sent
two
cups
of
cold
water
to
two
fellow-pilgrims
of
mine
on
the
way
to
Jerusalem
,
viz
:
to
E
.
H
.
,
Rom.
viii
.
1
;
to
Mrs.
M
.
,
Philipp
.
ii
.
27.
“
Prayed
for
increase
of
humility
.
I
am
so
afraid
my
great
success
in
His
vineyard
has
seduced
me
into
feeling
as
if
there
was
a
spring
of
living
water
in
myself
,
instead
of
every
drop
being
derived
from
the
true
fountain
.
”
“
March
9th
.
—
Dr.
Wycherley
closeted
two
hours
with
papa
—
papa
had
sent
for
him
,
I
find
.
What
is
it
makes
me
think
that
man
is
no
true
friend
to
Alfred
in
his
advice
?
I
do
n't
like
these
roundabout
speakers
:
the
lively
oracles
are
not
roundabout
.
”
“
March
10th
.
—
My
beloved
friend
and
fellow-labourer
,
Charlotte
D
—
—
,
ruptured
a
blood-vessel
(
x
)
at
three
P.
M
.
,
and
was
conveyed
in
the
chariots
of
angels
to
the
heavenly
banqueting-house
,
to
go
no
more
out
.
May
I
be
found
watching
.
”
“
March
11th
.
—
Dreadfully
starved
with
these
afternoon
sermons
.
If
they
go
on
like
this
,
I
really
must
stay
at
home
,
and
feed
upon
the
word
.
”
“
March
12th
.
—
Alfred
has
written
to
his
trustees
,
and
announced
his
coming
marriage
,
and
told
them
he
is
going
to
settle
all
his
money
upon
the
Dodds
.
Papa
quite
agitated
by
this
news
:
it
did
not
come
from
Alfred
;
one
of
the
trustees
wrote
to
papa
.
Oh
,
the
blessing
of
Heaven
will
never
rest
on
this
unnatural
marriage
.
Wrote
a
faithful
letter
to
Alfred
while
papa
was
writing
to
our
trustee
.
”
“
March
13th
.
—
My
book
on
Solomon
's
Song
now
ready
for
publication
.
But
it
is
so
difficult
now-a-days
to
find
a
publisher
for
such
a
subject
.
The
rage
is
for
sentimental
sermons
,
or
else
for
fiction
(
f
)
under
a
thin
disguise
of
religious
biography
.
”
“
March
14th
.
—
Mr.
Plummer
,
of
whose
zeal
and
unction
I
had
heard
so
much
,
was
in
the
town
and
heard
of
me
,
and
came
to
see
me
by
appointment
just
after
luncheon
.
Such
a
sweet
meeting
.
He
came
in
and
took
my
hand
,
and
in
that
posture
prayed
that
the
Holy
Spirit
might
be
with
us
to
make
our
conversation
profitable
to
us
,
and
redound
to
His
glory
.
Poor
man
,
his
wife
leads
him
a
cat
and
dog
life
,
I
hear
,
with
her
jealousy
.
We
had
a
sweet
talk
;
he
admires
Canticles
almost
as
much
as
I
do
(
z
)
:
and
has
promised
to
take
my
book
and
get
it
cast
on
the
Lord
(
g
)
for
me
.
”
“
March
15th
.
—
To
please
,
one
must
not
be
faithful
.
(
h
)
Miss
L
.
,
after
losing
all
her
relations
,
and
at
thirty
years
of
age
,
is
to
be
married
next
week
.
She
came
to
me
and
gushed
out
about
the
blessing
of
having
at
last
one
earthly
friend
to
whom
she
could
confide
everything
.
On
this
I
felt
it
my
duty
to
remind
her
she
might
lose
him
by
death
,
and
then
what
a
blank
;
and
I
was
going
on
to
detach
her
from
the
arm
of
flesh
,
when
she
burst
out
crying
,
and
left
me
abruptly
;
could
n't
bear
the
truth
,
poor
woman
.
“
In
the
afternoon
met
him
and
bowed
,
and
longed
to
speak
,
but
thought
it
my
duty
not
to
:
cried
bitterly
on
reaching
home
.
”
“
March
l7th
.
—
Transcribed
all
the
(
i
)
texts
on
Solomon
's
Song
.
It
seems
to
be
the
way
He
(
j
)
has
marked
out
for
me
to
serve
him
.
”
“
March
19th
.
—
Received
this
letter
from
Alfred
:
'
DEAR
JANE
,
—
I
send
you
a
dozen
kisses
and
a
piece
of
advice
;
learn
more
;
teach
less
:
study
more
;
preach
less
:
and
do
n't
be
in
such
a
hurry
to
judge
and
condemn
your
intellectual
and
moral
superiors
,
on
insufficient
information
.
—
Your
affectionate
brother
,
ALFRED
.
'
“
A
poor
return
for
me
loving
his
soul
as
my
own
.
I
do
but
advise
him
the
self-denial
I
myself
pursue
.
Woe
be
to
him
if
he
rejects
it
.
”
“
March
20th
.
—
A
perverse
reply
from
J
.
D
.
I
had
proposed
we
should
plead
for
our
parents
at
the
Throne
.
She
says
she
fears
that
might
seem
like
assuming
the
office
of
the
mediator
:
and
besides
her
mother
is
nearer
Heaven
than
she
is
.
What
blindness
!
I
do
n't
know
a
more
thoroughly
unhealthy
mind
than
poor
Mrs.
(
k
)
Dodd
's
.
I
am
learning
to
pray
walking
.
Got
this
idea
from
Mr.
Plummer
.
How
closely
he
walks
!
his
mind
so
exactly
suits
mine
.
”
“
March
22nd
.
—
Alfred
returned
.
Went
to
meet
him
at
the
station
.
How
bright
and
handsome
he
looked
!
He
kissed
me
so
affectionately
;
and
was
as
kind
and
loving
as
could
be
:
I
,
poor
unfaithful
wretch
,
went
hanging
(
m
)
on
his
arm
,
and
had
not
the
heart
to
dash
his
carnal
happiness
just
then
.
“
He
is
gone
there
.
”
“
March
24th
.
—
Stole
into
Alfred
's
lodging
when
he
was
out
;
and
,
after
prayer
,
pinned
Deuteronomy
xxvii
.
16
,
Proverbs
xiii
.
1
,
and
xv
.
5
,
and
Mark
vii
.
10
,
upon
his
bed-curtains
.
”
“
March
25th
.
—
Alfred
has
been
in
my
room
,
and
nailed
Matthew
vii
.
1
,
Mark
x
.
7
,
and
Ezek
.
xviii
.
20
,
on
my
wall
.
He
found
my
diary
,
and
has
read
it
,
not
to
profit
by
,
alas
!
but
to
scoff
.
”
[
Specimen
of
Alfred
's
comments
.
N.B.
Fraternal
criticism
:
A
.
Nolo
Episcopari
.
B
.
It
's
an
ill
wind
that
blows
nobody
good
.
D
.
The
old
trick
;
picking
one
text
,
straining
it
;
and
ignoring
six
.
So
then
nobody
who
is
not
born
married
,
must
get
married
.
E
.
Recipe
.
To
know
people
's
real
estimate
of
themselves
,
study
their
language
of
self-depreciation
.
If
,
even
when
they
undertake
to
lower
themselves
,
they
cannot
help
insinuating
self-praise
,
be
sure
their
humility
is
a
puddle
,
their
vanity
is
a
well
.
This
sentence
is
typical
of
the
whole
Diary
or
rather
Iary
;
it
sounds
Publican
,
smells
Pharisee
.
X
.
How
potent
a
thing
is
language
in
the
hand
of
a
master
:
Here
is
sudden
death
made
humorous
by
a
few
incongruous
phrases
neatly
disposed
.
F
.
Excuse
me
;
there
is
still
a
little
market
for
the
Liquefaction
of
Holy
Writ
,
and
the
perversion
of
Holy
Writ
;
two
deathless
arts
,
which
meet
in
your
comment
on
the
song
you
ascribe
to
Solomon
.
Z
.
More
than
Mrs.
Plummer
does
,
apparently
.
G
.
Apotheosis
of
the
British
public
.
How
very
like
profaneness
some
people
's
piety
is
!
C
.
H
.
Faith
,
with
this
school
,
means
anything
the
opposite
of
Charity
.
I
.
You
are
morally
truthful
:
but
intellectually
mendacious
.
The
texts
on
Solomon
's
Song
!
You
know
very
well
there
is
not
one
.
No
grave
writer
in
all
Scripture
has
ever
deigned
to
cite
,
or
notice
,
that
coarse
composition
;
puellarum
deliciae
.
J
.
Modest
periphrasis
for
“
I
like
it
.
”
Motto
for
this
Diary
;
“
Ego
,
et
Deus
meus
.
”
K
.
In
other
words
,
a
good
,
old-fashioned
,
sober
,
humble
Christian
,
to
whom
the
daring
familiarities
of
your
school
seem
blasphemies
.
M
.
Here
I
recognise
my
sister
;
somewhat
spoiled
by
a
detestable
sect
;
but
lovable
by
nature
(
which
she
is
for
ever
abusing
)
;
and
therefore
always
amiable
,
when
off
her
guard
.
“
March
28th
.
—
Mr.
Crawford
the
attorney
called
and
told
papa
his
son
had
instructed
him
to
examine
the
trust-deed
,
and
to
draw
his
marriage
settlement
.
Papa
treated
him
with
the
greatest
civility
,
and
brought
him
the
deed
.
He
wanted
to
take
it
away
to
copy
;
but
papa
said
he
had
better
send
a
clerk
here
.
Poor
papa
hid
his
distress
from
this
gentleman
,
though
not
from
me
;
and
gave
him
a
glass
of
wine
.
“
Then
Mr.
Crawford
chatted
,
and
let
out
Alfred
had
asked
him
to
advance
a
hundred
pounds
for
the
wedding
presents
,
etc.
Papa
said
he
might
do
so
with
perfect
safety
.
“
But
the
moment
he
was
gone
,
his
whole
manner
changed
.
He
walked
about
in
terrible
anger
and
agitation
:
and
then
sat
down
and
wrote
letters
;
one
was
to
uncle
Thomas
;
and
one
to
a
Mr.
Wycherley
;
I
believe
a
brother
of
the
doctor
's
.
I
never
knew
him
so
long
writing
two
letters
before
.
“
Heard
a
noise
in
the
road
,
and
it
was
Mr.
Maxley
,
and
the
boys
after
him
hooting
;
they
have
found
out
his
infirmity
:
what
a
savage
animal
is
man
,
till
grace
changes
him
!
The
poor
soul
had
a
stick
,
and
now
and
then
turned
and
struck
at
them
but
his
tormentors
were
too
nimble
.
I
drew
papa
to
the
window
,
and
showed
him
,
and
reminded
him
of
the
poor
man
's
request
.
He
answered
impatiently
what
was
that
to
him
?
'
We
have
a
worse
case
nearer
hand
.
Charity
begins
at
home
.
'
I
ventured
to
say
yes
,
but
it
did
not
begin
and
end
at
home
.
”
“
March
31st
.
—
Mr.
Osmond
here
to-day
;
and
over
my
work
I
heard
papa
tell
him
Alfred
is
blackening
his
character
in
the
town
with
some
impossible
story
about
fourteen
thousand
pounds
.
Mr.
Osmond
very
kind
and
sympathising
;
set
it
all
down
to
illusion
;
assured
papa
there
was
neither
malice
nor
insincerity
in
it
.
'
But
what
the
better
am
I
for
that
?
'
said
poor
papa
;
'
if
I
am
slandered
,
I
am
slandered
.
'
And
they
went
out
together
.
“
Papa
seems
to
feel
this
engagement
more
than
all
his
troubles
,
and
,
knowing
by
sad
experience
it
is
useless
to
expostulate
with
Alfred
,
I
wrote
a
long
and
faithful
letter
to
Julia
just
before
luncheon
,
putting
it
to
her
as
a
Christian
whether
she
could
reconcile
it
to
her
profession
to
set
a
son
against
his
father
,
and
marry
him
in
open
defiance
.
“
She
replied
,
3
P.
M
.
,
that
her
mother
approved
the
marriage
,
and
she
owed
no
obedience
,
nor
affection
either
,
to
my
parent
.
“
3.30
.
Sent
back
a
line
rebuking
her
for
this
quibble
.
“
At
5
received
a
note
from
Mrs.
Dodd
proposing
that
the
correspondence
between
myself
and
her
daughter
should
cease
for
the
present
.
“
5.30
.
Retorted
with
an
amendment
that
it
should
cease
for
ever
.
No
reply
.
Such
are
worldlings
!
Remonstrance
only
galls
them
.
And
so
in
one
afternoon
's
correspondence
ends
one
more
of
my
Christian
friendships
with
persons
of
my
own
sex
.
This
is
the
eighth
to
which
a
carnal
attachment
has
been
speedily
fatal
.
“
In
the
evening
Alfred
came
in
looking
very
red
,
and
asked
me
whether
it
was
not
self-reliant
and
uncharitable
of
me
to
condemn
so
many
estimable
persons
,
all
better
acquainted
with
the
circumstances
than
I
am
.
I
replied
with
the
fifth
commandment
.
He
bit
his
lip
and
said
,
'
We
had
better
not
meet
again
,
until
you
have
found
out
which
is
worthiest
of
honour
,
your
father
or
your
brother
.
'
And
with
this
he
left
abruptly
;
and
something
tells
me
I
shall
not
see
him
again
.
My
faithfulness
has
wounded
him
to
the
quick
.
Alas
!
Prayed
for
him
and
cried
myself
to
sleep
.
”
“
April
4th
.
Met
him
disguised
as
a
common
workman
,
and
carrying
a
sack
full
of
things
.
I
was
so
shocked
I
could
not
maintain
my
resolution
:
I
said
,
'
Oh
,
Mr.
Edward
,
what
are
you
doing
?
'
He
blushed
a
little
,
but
told
me
he
was
going
to
sell
some
candlesticks
and
things
of
his
making
:
and
he
should
get
a
better
price
in
that
dress
;
all
traders
looked
on
a
gentleman
as
a
thing
made
to
be
pillaged
.
Then
he
told
me
he
was
going
to
turn
them
into
a
bonnet
and
a
wreath
;
and
his
beautiful
brown
eyes
sparkled
with
affection
.
What
egotistical
creatures
they
must
be
!
I
was
quite
overcome
,
and
said
,
Oh
why
did
he
refuse
our
offer
?
Did
he
hate
me
so
very
much
that
he
would
not
even
take
his
due
from
my
hand
?
'
No
,
'
he
said
,
'
nobody
in
our
house
is
so
unjust
to
you
as
to
hate
you
;
my
sister
honours
you
,
and
is
very
sorry
you
think
ill
of
her
:
and
,
as
for
me
,
I
love
you
;
you
know
how
I
love
you
.
'
I
hid
my
face
in
my
hands
;
and
sobbed
out
,
'
Oh
,
you
must
not
;
you
must
not
;
my
poor
father
has
one
disobedient
child
already
.
'
He
said
softly
,
'
Do
n't
cry
,
dear
one
;
have
a
little
patience
;
perhaps
the
clouds
will
clear
:
and
,
meantime
,
why
think
so
ill
of
us
?
Consider
,
we
are
four
in
number
,
of
different
dispositious
,
yet
all
of
one
mind
about
Julia
marrying
Alfred
.
May
we
not
be
right
;
may
we
not
know
something
we
love
you
too
well
to
tell
you
?
'
His
words
and
his
rich
manly
voice
were
so
soothing
;
I
gave
him
just
one
hand
while
I
still
hid
my
burning
face
with
the
other
;
he
kissed
the
hand
I
yielded
him
,
and
left
me
abruptly
.
“
If
Alfred
should
be
right
!
I
am
staggered
now
;
he
puts
it
so
much
more
convincingly
.
”
“
April
5th
.
A
letter
from
Alfred
,
announcing
his
wedding
by
special
license
for
the
11th
.
“
Made
no
reply
.
What
could
I
say
?
“
Papa
,
on
my
reading
it
out
left
his
very
breakfast
half
finished
,
and
packed
up
his
bag
and
rushed
up
to
London
.
I
caught
a
side
view
of
his
face
;
and
I
am
miserable
.
Such
a
new
,
such
a
terrible
expression
!
a
vile
expression
!
Heaven
forgive
me
,
it
seemed
the
look
of
one
who
meditated
a
crime
.
”
CHAPTER
XXIX
THE
spirit
of
dissension
in
Musgrove
Cottage
penetrated
to
the
very
kitchen
.
Old
Betty
sided
with
Alfred
,
and
combated
in
her
place
the
creed
of
the
parlour
:
“
Why
,
according
to
Miss
,
the
young
sparrows
